Fear

Remember the Forgotten

                  

Chapter 28- Remember the Forgotten

Clary POV

As soon as we get back from training, I collapse in a heap on the bed and hear only a small low chuckle from Ash as he tucks a blanket around me and presses a light kiss against cheek, telling me goodnight before darkness overtakes.

They come back to me.

The late night kisses; the training sessions; the demon hunting... I remember him. I remember first seeing him in Pandemonium, a club I used to go to with Simon; I remember learning who I am, a daughter of Valentine; I remember the heartache of learning that Jace was my brother only to then be told otherwise. I remember going to Idris, sleeping next to Jace at Amatis' house, hands entwined and waking up to find him gone and the bed beside me empty. I remember finding Jace dead next to Lake Lyn and asking the Angel Raziel to bring him back. I remember...

I remember.

I wake up with strong hands shaking me awake and when I open my green eyes, I see golden ones looking back at me. Although I had seen Jace the previous morning, I realise how much I miss him. I miss the Jace who used to hold me tight in his arms and tell me he loved me: I miss the Jace who remembered the fifteen-year-old he first brought into the institute.

He suddenly looks different to me, somehow brighter and more beautiful (if it was even possible). I love him- that much is clear- but if he doesn't remember me, could he ever love me back? Love for him consumes me and I find myself launching into his arms.

"If I'd known you were going to be this happy to see me, I wouldn't have bothered to bring good news," Jace laughs before resting his chin on the top of my head.

"You brought good news?" I ask quietly.

"I know, right?" He pulls away and holds me at an arm's length. I can feel his distance from me like ice spreading through my veins. "After being in this depressing place of death, you'd think 'good news' would be impossible!"

I look at him expectantly, waiting to be told the brilliant news, but he just looks at me grinning. "So..." I begin to prompt him, gesturing with my hands for him to continue.

"Clarissa Adele Fray," he starts. He holds on tightly to my hands and pulls them so that they are in-between us. I look down at them nervously as I feel the callouses on his hands and feel his gentle eyes that seem to allow him to caress my cheek without even moving. "You are the most beautiful person I have ever seen, and for shadowhunters, 'ever' is a very long time. I feel like you're a missing part of me; like I've known you in another life and have finally found you again. You are beautiful and perfect and wonderful and I never want to be without you. So I need you to promise me that when we are out of here, that you'll stick with me and we'll figure this out."

Completely stunned, I stutter, "I...I promise." Nobody had ever really called me beautiful other than Jace. I mean sure, my mom and Luke said it- but they have to... They're my parents. "What's gotten into you all of a sudden?"

"We're leaving. Tomorrow, we'll break out; Ash has given us the all clear," Jace grins, his eyes shining like happiness had somehow been melted into golden pools and put in his eyes.

"What?" I exclaim, throwing myself into his arms... again. He twirls me around, and in that second we are like two giddy teenagers in love. Who am I kidding? We are two giddy teenagers in love.

Jace's eyes lock on my own and he slowly leans towards me. He brushes his lips along mine and, instead of letting him tease me, I fiercely press my lips to his and everything around me seems to fade away. We have been separate people for too long and this time I'm not letting go.