Was it Worth it?

Need some time

I left Syn room but I went and watched my nephew for a few. Ray came behind me and just held me as we looked at Q and the other babies. 

After we left, I caught up with Nyla. Well I surprised her cause she didn't know I was back

Ray dropped me off at her house while he went to visit his family.

Nyla opened the door and looked at me. I smirked and hugged her

"I'm not ain't shit Ny"

"I see and I guess I'm not either"

We went straight to her room and I got comfy in her bed after I took off my shoes and changed my clothes. I got her caught up on all the drama 

"So you just left?"

"What else was I supposed to do Ny? We aren't on the best terms. I was there for the birth of my nephew what else was I supposed to do?"

"Umm Sasi maybe say hello or congrats"

"Nope that's not me. She tried it and I always told her that no matter what I would always be there or my godchild and guess what?"

"You are there for the baby"

"Yup so I did my part"

"But that is your friend"

"Yup you are right she is just a friend nothing more well the mother of my godchild."

"You just petty"

"No like you are my sister and so was she but she was never there when I needed her at all. But when she needed me. I was always there. When she was raped, all her heart breaks, when she lost her first child, when her bestfriend went to jail, when this one left her all those times."

"That's not the point Sasi, treat others the way you want to be treated"

"No cause when I needed my girls she was always busy. When Moshi passed. Where was she? When Ma passed where was she? When my dad passed, she said she needed time? So now I need my time"

"I guess you are right. I hope I won't have to worry about that"

"Oh you won't and I'm going to make sure of it"

We laughed and ate before we took a nap. I spent the night and Ray picked me up in the morning. We went back to the hospital and Ray and Syn talked while I held the baby.

I really was not about to say anything to her. What was there for me to say? 

I mean I wanted to talk to her but I'm not over the fact that she told me she needed time

I don't understand how you need time when it was your friend father who passed? Am I wrong for feeling this way.

I felt my hair being yanked. I looked down at Q and he was looking back up at me

I guess I am wrong for feeling this way then. He smiled at me and I just shook my head. I got up and handed Syn her baby and walked out the room. I need some time. I can't do this