Was it Worth it?

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Six hours had gone by and Ray wasn't back with my baby. During this time I have had two panic attacks. It isn't easy being away from my baby. I know Ray is capable of taking care of a baby. Just don't know if he is capable of taking care of Jaze. I don't want anything to happen her

Riz and Mama have been helping me in a way. Both of them are tired of me and I can't blame them.

I have tried calling Ray countless time and he hasn't answered the phone. I'm ready to call the cops on him. I just want my child back. I wonder what they are doing and have done? Who has he had her around? Did she eat? Is she cranky? But most of all is my baby ok. 

Ray walked in holding a sleeping Jaze. I rushed to him and took her from him. I started to check her to make sure she was fine. She smelled just like how she left and looked the same. I instantly calmed down once I realized, my child was ok. 

"I know what I'm doing with my child Sasi"

"Well she doesn't think so with all the panic attacks and crying she been doing and having all day long" Mama said

I just looked at her. Why did she need to tell him about that. 

Ray walked over and grabbed Jaze and handed her to Mom. He then grabbed my wrist and pulled me outside. We walked to his car and he opened the door. I got in and closed the door. He stood there for a moment and then got in and pulled off. The ride was quiet. I wasn't ready for what could possibly happen. I didn't want to talk about the past but I knew everything needed to be addressed. 

We pulled up at a house he parked and we both got out. He led the way and I just followed but not too close behind him. We walked into his home and we went to the kitchen we sat down at the table. We both looked at one another and then around. Neither one of us wanted to be the first to talk. Twenty minutes later he started

"I'm going to be in my daughter and Q's life no matter what"

"I'm not stopping you"

"No Sasi, I mean she going to live in the same country, state, city, and home as me"

"How is that supposed to happen?"

"Ya move in and we co-parent. I want Jaze to always have her dad around"

"That can still happen if we live in different homes"

"No I want access to her whenever I want. You had her and was able to build a bond with her. Stop being selfish"

I went to say something but I knew that Ray was right. 

"Now that this is all settled let me show you around" He got up 

I followed Ray around the house. He showed me how he had Jaze room decorated in lavender and sky blue. He showed me how he had Q room like a forest. He showed me to my room which was gold and purple. I had my own bathroom but it wasn't finished yet. He showed me where his room was at but I didn't want to see it.  Ray told me that he had just got this place and that my room was the only thing not complete. It crossed my mind that he did that on purpose but I kept my mouth shut about it.