Was it Worth it?

Luv

I woke up alone in a king sized bed. I scanned the room and didn't see or hear anyone or anything. I got up and grabbed a shirt to put on. I had to stop and lean on the dresser to catch myself. My head started spinning and I tried to remember how I even got here. I just knew that it was a mistake. Ray came in the room with a towel around his waist and he was eyeing me.

"Glad you up now come give your husband a kiss"Ray said

"We aren't married. Stop looking at me like that. What happened last night Ray?"

"Nyla and Riz got married. You wanted to get married so we did I swear you were sober. You didn't get drunk until later"

"So you let me marry you?" 

"You are a grown women. What am I supposed to do? Why would I stop you? I want us together. We are a family and this just confirms it"

I got dressed and I left. I walked out the hotel room and bumped into Nyla and Riz

"Congrats you are really my sis now" Riz says

"Shit it really is true?"

"Yes girl. You shocked all of us but now we both are married and can start having kids" Nyla says

I shook my head and walked away from them. I couldn't believe I did this. I mean yes I wanted to be married to Ray at some point. But not right now. 

Ray did the drive home and I slept because my head was still hurting. As soon as the car stopped, I went in the house. 

Present Day 

All of that happened 2 months ago and Ray and I have been avoiding each other. It's been working but isn't healthy for us or the kids. We don't even eat dinner as a family anymore. I have tried to talk to him because I know majority of it is my fault but he doesn't want to deal with me. 

I just got home from work and finding out that Nyla and Riz are expecting. I walk into the house and find Ray trying to get them to clean up. I stand at the door and watch them. I looked down and looked at the ring. I never took it off but what's the use of having it if we aren't together

"Hi kids. Mommy missed you all so much today" I said as I walked over to Que and Jaze

I hugged and kissed them. Ray started to walk away but I grabbed his hand

He looked at me and snatched his hand back. 

"What I got a date?"

"Raymond we need to talk."

"If it not about them those two then we don't need to talk"

"Fine Ray. Just know that I tried" 

He didn't look back he went and got ready and left. I finished getting them ready for bed but we all ended up falling asleep in my bed to the Lion King.

I woke up to them laying on me and I just smiled. I moved them off of me and kissed them both.  I checked my phone and saw that it was 3 am. I got out of bed and went to the bathroom. Then I went downstairs to find me something to eat. I started to rub my belly as I looked. 

I heard a door closed and I jumped

"Always a punk" I hear Ray say

"Well thanks for startling me Raymond"

"You know you always welcome. There isn't anything to cook. I forgot to text you that"

"I closed the cabinet. Thanks" 

I made my way upstairs and threw on some clothes and grabbed my phone and wallet.

"They are in my rooms. I'll be back"

"Where are you going?"

"Out on a date" I smirked at him and left out 

I was so happy that my boy had a 24 hour Jamaican restaurant. I got there in no time. I walked in and went right into the bathroom. I came out a few minutes later.

"Look at you with a little glow"

I laughed and sat down right in front of him. He pushed my plate right to me and I started to eat.

"Gal slow down. The food isn't going anywhere. What you haven't eaten in how long?"

I put the fork down and grabbed a napkin to wipe my mouth. I looked at him and laughed

"Boy you don't know how good this food taste. I missed your cooking. It's just so good"

"Stop with the lies. How far a long?"

"2 months exactly. You are the only one that know."

"When you going to tell?" Corey asked

"I tried to many of times. He is too childish right now to talk to me. I guess when its noticeably he will put it all together"

"This is exactly why I can't. Ya supposedly married right now but acting like ya single. I still don't understand how everything transpired. But enjoy your food and don't worry, I'm sending you home with more" Corey walked over to me and kissed my forehead.

I finished eating and grabbed the bag. I made my way home, put the food up and sat down on the couch. 

What if I don't tell him? Would he hate me like how he did when he found out about Jaze? Would we ever work out?