Was it Worth it?

Turn for the Worse 2

I didn't wake up until 10pm. The doctor and nurse came and checked up on me. They told me that since I just woke up, they wanted to keep me overnight. I was fine with it.

The nurse was able to have my guest stay the night, just as long as we stayed quiet.

"Nyla, I guess you are not ain't shit anymore" I smiled at my sis

Nyla laughed. she came and hugged me

"Guess I'm not unlike some other people. But you know I'm always there when you in the hospital" We both laughed

I had surgery before and the only friend that visited me was Nyla. She was like my mother third child and third daughter. No one could not tell us that we were not sister.

Riz finally walked in the room and hugged me. He kissed my forehead. I smiled

"Glad that ya are friends again" Ray said

I looked at Riz and he looked at me.

"We always been cool. Just had to make it seem like we fell out. Sasi knows she my hittah. Why would I be mad anyway. I don't have any kids." Riz said

Everyone but Ray and I looked at him

"Seriously I don't. That rumor started because of two chicks. Their kids ain't mine but that don't mean the world needs to know I don't have any. These girls be trying to trap dudes. But not I Riz"

We all laughed at him.

"Aye can ya give me and fake unc some time please"

Everyone got up and left the room. My uncle came and got in the bed with me.

"I'm sorry for leaving how I did bruh"

"Nah Sas, it's cool. You lost your mom and there honestly wasn't anything really left" He started to choke up.

I rubbed his back

"It ok Meech, let it out. I know you miss her"

I don't  call him uncle for the simple fact that he is 4 years older than me. We grew up simply as brother and sister. I had a older sister Moshi, they were born on the same day at the same time. I find it weird that my mom and grandmother (dad mom) was pregnant at the same time. So Meech and Moshi are like twin uncle and niece. I'm born exactly 4 years and 4 days after them.  Anyways about almost 5 years ago Moshi was killed with her boyfriend, his mother and her boyfriend. My mom lost it and  wasn't able to take care of my niece. That day my sister left, was the same day a part of Meech left.

20 minutes we were good and everyone came back inside. We started playing uno until we all knocked out. I left the next morning and when I got home my friends were there. I packed my stuff and headed on a flight with Nyla, Riz and Ray right by me.

                                                 Fast Forward

The morning of the funeral, I got into it with everyone. I ended up getting there on my own and sitting by myself. I felt someone sit down next to me but I didn't look

"Glad to see you again. But I'm sorry" was what the person said

I looked at who said it and smiled on the inside when I saw my niece and her aunt. I grabbed my niece and kissed all over her face.

"Thanks Ria, I needed this" I said

She just nodded her head and rubbed my back. Why did she do that? I started to cry.

Before I knew it I had to go up and say a few words. I took my niece with me. I was the last child to go up and I wanted it that way

"I didn't think this would be the last time that I would have seen my dad. I didn't know that the last time I spoke to him would have been. I know from losing my sister, mom, and now my dad that I can't go back in time. I miss them but know that they are all watching over me and my niece. I'm hurting and I know my grandmother, uncle, siblings, and family are hurting right now but we will get over this. But hoping that I had more time with him won't help"

I started to sing I was here, then I sung Heaven

I broke down crying after I finished singing

Viewing the body was the worst. Ria was right by my side, afterwards I walked out and went with Ria.

We met everyone else at the repass, 2 hours later. Everyone was glad that Ria had brought Julia.

I stopped Ria before she left

"Please don't leave" I said

"This is ya family time" Ria said

"Ria, you know or may not know, I haven't been home for a funeral in 2 years. The last time was for my mother. I barely come home and don't want to be around them for a while. I do want to be in my niece life"

"I'm not stopping you. I told you since the first day that I met you, you was cool. You still apart of my family."

I hugged her and it felt like a weight was lifted. I went outside and saw 3 white butterflies. I smiled and looked up at the sky.

I went back inside and found my siblings playing with my niece.

My parents had two kids together. Moshi and I. My dad went on and had a lot more. In total, I had Moshi as my only sister and 5 brothers.  Moshi would of been 25 and the youngest is 7.

I'm not as close to my brothers as I would like because we live in different places. My dad had 2 kids with my mom, 2 with his 2nd wife, 2 with this lady, and one with his last ex. Meech came and took Julia.

Before I went back to school for a week then to come back home, I hung out with Ria and all of her kids including my niece. I made up with my crew and they were understanding.

I got on the plane with Ray and he stayed by my side the whole time