Hopelessly addicted to you (a Darren espanto fanfic!)

Goodbye (Chapter 52)

Anika's POV

---1 week later---

My eyes are tired of crying and it feels like I can't cry anymore... After almost losing my mom and permanently loss my dad. Sometimes I think that I'm carrying a bad charm. And worse he died while we were not in good terms. I can still remember this past week.

I was running through the hall looking for this room where they place my father for sometime. but when I past by the emergency room even though it was just peripheral vision I know it was my dad being revived. Doctors surrounding him while he was still covered in blood while a nurse hold the dextrose high.. I froze at my spot. Wanting to go there but I glass door was preventing me to. My tears falls non stop. The pacemaker sign that my dad was already gone. From the outside you can hear the straight frequency of the pacemaker. My heart stop of the thought my dad's gone. While surprise that asthma didn't betray me this time. Till the doctor declared that his dead. My knees trembled till I can't stand anymore some of the doctor and nurse notice me they look at me and open the door.

A nurse confront me and said he was sorry. they did everything to bring him back. He help me get up and walk me over to my dad. His face looked bad. His entire forehead was covered in blood while he's nose bleed some bruise was clear like in the left side of his forehead and the jaw. His long blue sleeves was covered in blood. I covered my mouth and shut my eyes. I turn around as I slowly fall to the ground. I keep on slapping the floor "this can't be happening?!" I shouted making some nurse and doctors look at me. I stood up and look at my dad again. "Dad I'm so sorry..." I said in a crack voice. "If only I knew what I know now I should Have believed you.. Dad I'm very sorry.." I said again.  I hug him as I feel his cold chest. After like 40 minutes I rested at a chair beside the bed.  My hands over my head. My feet tapping at the floor I know I look a mess right now. But telling this news to my family is a lot messer than my face.

"God,help me.." I said to my self.. My hands are shaking looking at the bed beside me where my father laid, who now is covered in white sheet. I called some of my family including my mom and now their on there way. I can't even think straight. Then a group of family stop in front of the ER and they were as shock as I am. Tito Daniel— daddy's elder brother rush to me as he peek at daddy's face. While daddy's mother "mama far" that's what we call her. Was humming and crying when he saw his son lifelessly. Some of my cousins came. They comforted me while giving their condolence. I only nod cause what I said earlier I can't think straight. My mom was probably crying right now with honey.. When will honey get here? But it's okay if she won't Im sure she can't take it. I gulp hard as my conscience eat my brain for not believing him. He must have take it hard. And maybe I was the reason why he got into an accident.

There were 3 police man who confronted us. I already told them what happened—which was daddy got into a car accident since I don't know the full story. Tito Daniel handle it for me. 

After that we decided to have daddy cremated. I know that's what daddy wants. They took me home but I was all alone. Mommy was still at the hospital with honey. But I was fine with it. I put daddy to the altar and smile. It was a sad smile tho. I walk to my room and lock my self. Here I go again...  I sat down and lean behind the door I curl my knees and hug them.. My phone rang beside me and I glance at it. It was Darren. I pick it up and answer him.

"Hey." He said.
"Hey." I answered.
"How are you doing?" He ask. I bite my lip preventing the tear that was about to fall.
"Not so good." I answered back but my voice was crack.
"I'm coming over.. With my family maybe a day or two we just need to get daddy excuse." He said
"Okay.."I said wiping the tear that had fallen
"Just wait for me I'll be there.." He said
"Darren..." I said in a weak tone
"Yes?"
"Sing for me please?" I said.
"Okay.." He said he took a deep breath. for once I chuckled it's like his going to sing in front of a billion people.
"I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have
At night when the stars light up my room
I sit byself talking to the moon
Try'na get to you
In hope youre on the other side
Talking to me too
Oh am I a fool
But since alone talking to the moon oh,oh,oh.." He sang.
"Was that suppose to make me feel better?" I ask. A little hint of  sarcasm
"Sorry I was listening to it earlier na lss yata ako.." He said.
"I still need you tho." I said changing the topic
"I know. That's why we're coming there diba?." He said.
"I'm such a stupid daughter.." I said hitting my head.
"Stop saying that.. Hindi mo kasalanan.." He said.
"But what if I was the reason? Baka ako ang ini isip niya while driving that's why he got into an accident.." I said obviously protesting.
"We don't know that." He said then he sigh.
"Malay mo." I said
"Hay,nika stop being like that." He said
"Stop being what?" I ask
"..... That." He answered.
"I don't get it." I lied. I completely knew what he meant.
"*sigh* change topic nga tayo! Ano ginagawa mo?" He said. I look up to the ceiling.
"Nakikipag usap.." I answered.
"Kay nino?" He ask. I smiled cause he didn't get it.
"Sayo ingot." I said.
"Ha.ha.ha funny.. But at least iba ang ini isip mo." He said. I got curious.
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"Well.. You know downer,something relegated to that." He said. I was silent for a while. He's right but you can't take it away from me to be sad and all.
"You need to be here before daddy's ash-- you know." I said. I don't even wanna say the word. He smirk how did I know. Well I heard it.
"Change topic." He said.. I was silent again. I think the only thing he can hear right now is my breathing.
"Anong posisyon mo?" He ask.
"An dito sa door naka upo habang niyayakap and tuod ko.." But I let it go and straight my feet since it was tiring.
"Wag mo pabayaan ang sarili mo.. Matutulog na ako." He said.
"Okay.. Goodnight." I said then he drop. I stood up and walk towards my bed and their I lay down. Then I notice the picture frame where daddy and I was smiling from ear to ear and while my mommy was carrying honey in a piggy back ride. I smiled as I remember it.
"Bye pa." I said reminiscing his face. I grab the picture frame and hug it.

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Si Darren parang moon, Malayo,maliwanag, and every time I try to talk to him he won't answer.. He never answers.. But we can feel his love. Ang drama ko! Hahahaha. Happy late April fools day!

"Belated happy 22th monthsary!!! Stay strong tayo and I hope hindi tayo mag sawa supportanhan si Darren! Love lots!"

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