A Dark Light

Chapter 22 - Sunpearl

Early the next morning me and Sunny stood with Cinnamon and Pepper at the entrance to the cave. "I'll miss you Pepper, but try to enjoy yourself alright? You've always been good at finding something fun in bad situations" I said thinking back. Of course yesterday had been the worst day of my entire life, but I decided not to mention that. As they turned to leave I thanked Cinnamon again for taking Pepper with him. "I'll take care of him" Cinnamon promised and I knew that meant if he couldn't find Silverblaze he'd take care of Pepper until he was ready to be on his own. We said our goodbyes again and I watched the pair head out, stop for a drink at the stream then gallop off out of sight. I sighed as they disappeared over the hill, I was really going to miss Pepper. I knew it was better this way though, Darkstar would've killed him if he stayed. I felt like Darkstar was always watching me, and it made me really uncomfortable. If I went outside he would watch from the cave entrance, while I was in the cave every time I saw him he seemed to be watching me. Even when I was completely under his control he was still a creepy stalker. I don't know why he watched so much, there wasn't much I could do. He'd taken literally everything I had from me. I never really saw Thunder, I often wondered what he was doing but I had bigger problems to think about then what Thunder did in his free time. Over the next week Darkstar kept trying to start random conversations with me. It annoyed me and I would remain silent until he nipped at my side demanding an answer to whatever random question he asked. I didn't understand why he cared, like once the question was what my favorite color is. Like why did he need to know that? I didn't like him knowing so much about me, but he scared me so if he demanded and answer I gave in pretty quickly. I hated myself for being so weak but I couldn't really change that. Sunny noticed how stressed I was and spent a lot of time just hanging out with me. I was grateful she was my friend, she was the only one confident enough to talk to me ever since Darkstar had kicked that one mare I was talking to. We'd been having a conversation, I don't even remember what it was about, but she joked about something and Darkstar got mad about what she said to me. I don't even remember what it was, but we'd just been joking around. The other horses avoided taking to me for long periods of time after that, so I was pretty lonely. If it weren't for Sunny I think it would've driven me crazy. She was lucky she didn't have to go through this. I still didn't know how I was supposed to raise a foal, and I really didn't want Darkstar to be it's father. Everyday felt the same, I never felt any better honestly. After two weeks with him gone, I missed Pepper terribly but I knew he was better off going with Cinnamon. I often wondered where they had gone. When I saw Thunder I noticed he was just as mean as Darkstar with his herd. At least he seemed to leave Sunny alone usually, Darkstar was always nearby it felt like. I wished he'd leave me alone honestly. I found myself starting to spend more time sleeping then usual. I didn't know if it was because of how stressed I was or just because I was pregnant. Either way I spent most of the day sleeping and waiting for something, anything, to change.