Falling for the Player, My Best Friend.| cammyyf ♥︎

Chapter 9: Jealousy.

After crying with my dad for 20 minutes, I headed upstairs. I got ready to go to bed. I checked my phone and I saw 1 text message from Jayden.

Are you okay babygirl?..

I replied.

I'm fine Peter Pan.

He texted back.

Are you sure? You missed the rest of school after lunch. Brianna walked in the lunchroom smiling. Her cheek was red.

I replied, chuckling a bit.

I just didn't feel well. Well Brianna and I had a fight. But she slapped me first. She told me to stay away from you.. I kinda responded back with some mean words, which made her slap me. I slapped her back, then she pulled my hair. I'm fine though.

He texted back again.

Just get some ice on your cheek. I hope your really okay babygirl. I have no idea why I kissed her back. I just thought of someone and thought it was her.

My heart felt like it broke when I read the last sentence he sent.

I replied.

Yeah I'll get some ice. Don't worry I'm fine Jayden. Ohh okay.

He texted back.

Okay, good. Goodnight babygirl. See you tmrw.

I smiled a tiny bit and cried. "I just thought of someone and thought it was her.". I don't get why I'm feeling this way.

Do I, Noelle Ausman, have a crush on, Jayden Evans?..

I ignored my thoughts and got a notebook from my desk. I got a pencil out and opened the notebook. I drew whatever I was thinking about. When my hand stopped drawing, I opened my eyes.

In the notebook was a picture of a couple kissing. One girl alone in the rain. I closed my eyes and tears fell.

I went to the bathroom, opened the cabinet under the sink and there I saw a blade. I cried more and more. It's been 1 month since I've cut.

I picked up the blade, and cut little marks on my forearm. I cried each time I made a cut. Tears kept falling, no matter what.

After about 20 small cuts, I stopped. I put the blade away and quickly bandaged the cuts. I was still in tears.

I walked to my bed and fell asleep.

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I woke up to my alarm clock, again. I did my business and headed downstairs. I decided to black pants, a plain black shirt, a blue flannel, and black converse.

Once I got downstairs I saw my dad watching tv. He was watching "Criminal Minds".

"I'm going to school now dad!" I said, walking out of the house with an apple.

"Have fun pumpkin!" He replied.

I smiled and placed down my skateboard. I skated towards the school, not caring about my surroundings. Once I reached the school my heart froze.

I saw Jayden. Not alone. With Brianna. They were kissing. Again. I wiped the tears from my eyes and kept moving forward. I walked through the double doors and headed to my first class.

I sat down in my seat next too Alex. He looked at me, eyes filled with concern and curiosity. I looked away and focused on the teacher. I think his name was like Mr.Knalac or something close.

*SKIP TO LUNCH ONCE AGAIN*

I decided not to go to lunch. I wanted to skate. Skate and listen to music. I wanted to ignore the world. I left school and set down my skateboard.

"I want to die." I whispered to myself.

I started skating, not caring where I went. I ended up at the same park were Jayden and I talked. Tears filled my eyes, remembering that day.

I looked around me and saw trees moving, grass as well, sky wasn't blue, sun wasn't out and clouds were.

I feel like shit, I thought to myself.

I am shit. I thought again.

I stayed at the park for 2 hours, skipping school. My phone beeped.

From: Best Friend 😈

Hey babygirl, where are you?

I smiled a fake smile.

To: Best Friend 😈

I'm at the park.

He replied.

From: Best Friend 😈

I'm coming there!

I slightly smiled, a real smile. I pulled up my sleeve and saw the cuts.

I'm weak. I thought to myself.

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