What's your Sign?

Chapter 49 - Sick With Heartbreak

Jermaine

-2 weeks later-

It's been two weeks, tour life is bittersweet. Being able to know that I have fans across this nation is mind blowing. Every night it's a different energy, and I love vibing out with my supporters. Every night I feel like I'm dreaming, the love is so unconditional like something I never had. I'm literally living my dream. But I still miss my family and shit. The New York City life, but definitely miss my son.

Tonight I'm home for the weekend. I haven't seen my son in two weeks and skype calls aren't cutting it. And Teyana won't let me Skype him when he is with her so Skyping about 2 nights out of the week, maybe four times If her mother is home to give me a call. It's really hard when the mother of our child is being difficult but I know I deserve it.

With his mother and I not talking whatsoever I have to develop the balls to put our relationship to the side and let her focus on school, and we focus on Amir, together. She won't speak to me and she doesn't even want to hear my voice. I have tried calling her and setting up things to see her face to face but she's not giving in whatsoever.

"Hi baby! Oh my god I missed you" my mother and I grabbed her in a hug. She kissed me as she hugged me so tightly "how are you? They sent me videos of you doing your thing. I'm so proud of you"

"Thanks Ma" I spoke "and I missed you too Ma"

"Everybody so proud of you here, they say you are doing so good" she spoke and I nodded as I sat down at the kitchen counter.

"But ma when you coming to one of my shows?" I asked her and she laughed as she leaned against the counter drinking her daily tea. She side eyed me and laughed.

"You know I don't like flying" she spoke "but I do want to see you on stage"

"You coming to my New York Show right?" I spoke and she nodded rapidly.

"Of course I wouldn't miss it" she spoke "see now everyone is coming to that show"

"I know I know its going to be legendary" I spoke

"Yes but baby, how have you been?" She spoke

"Good" I spoke as she placed a cup of tea in front of me.

"I'm your mother I know you" she spoke "and I know what happened that night"

"What are you talking about" I said as I used the tea bag to mix the honey.

"I know this tour is really taking your mind off off of all of this but baby I know you are suffering"

"I'm fine" I sat back in my chair "where is Amir?"

"He's with his mother" she spoke and sat her teacup down.

"You going to go pick him up?"

"No you are, I have to make a couple of runs and she is on the other side of town right now" placing her empty cup in the sink.

"You know she don't want me there, she wouldn't even open the door" she spoke "I'm surprised she didn't get a restraining order on me"

"She loves you" she spoke

"She despises me"

I grabbed my phone. I was sick of hearing the same shit. I will probably get Steez to go get him or somebody.

"What you scared to face her?"

"Nah I'm never scared, we got history and I know her."

"But you did her dirty, you played her and she was blinded. I'm glad she's still willing to go about everything. You better be glad all she is doing is not speaking" she spoke getting a little angry " I never brought you up or your grandmother didn't raise you like that. You set her up. Do you know how she is feeling right now. Don't act nonchalant about this. I can't believe you did that her"