What's your Sign?

Chapter 39 - The Real Love & Hip Hop

How Jermaine looks right now in the MM.

Jermaine

"FUCKING BITCH" I yelled as I felt my heart fall out my chest.

I walked over to the door looking out the peep hole to see her walking away. I watched as she turned the corner and looked down opening the door. To see the necklace that I gave her.

Yo! She can't be fucking serious! Half of me did not want to believe this was reality. I just wanted to wake the fuck up in the morning and have her sleeping next to me. I wanted to be able to kiss her head then her lips.

She was my fucking Rose.

We were a fucking Union. She can't just leave me in the dark like this. I need her and she knows that. She so damn stubborn.

Teyana so fucking stubborn that she would have a weight wrapped around her ankle and the key in one hand as she drowned in a river. I would be locked up against to a tree trying to save us both but she won't give me the key because she feels like she can't trust me. She would rather die than let me save us both.

At this point she has the key to change this situation. Regardless of how we got in this predicament, she will always hold the key. She has the power to give away the key and let me free so I can save her but she is afraid that if I get free I would leave her to die. But I would want to save her regardless of the situation. I would stretch myself far and thin and powerless to save her. However with out her key I'm powerless to change both of our circumstances. Nothing will ever be enough for her to trust me. I would break my own chain if I could but i can't so I'm force to see her drown. Even if she's the one that is dying she still has the most power at the end of the day. She could save us both but she would die before she would just trust me. Soon after I would die without the key.

The key I speak of is her heart. The weight around her ankle is my past along with hers. The water that drowns her is her mind and her surroundings, also her conscious. The chains that got me hooked up to the tree is my pride and power. Her heart could let us both free of everything and put us in the best predicament for us and our family.

I love her I truly do but life puts us in situations that causes us to learn. Good or bad. At first it was you and me and now today I wonder who I am and where the fuck my mind was when I backed away from the situation like a bitch. But I can't change that and she knows that. Nothing can replace her. People always ask what's wrong with me but damn I'm only just a man.

This shit right here, hurts me so much but she really be having me fucked up. I waited years to get her and treat her how she should be treated and we can't even make a year without interruptions from people.

Teyana gave me happiness. Pure happiness. Whether she had an attitude some times or not. I just knew she had my damn back and would listen. She truly has became the mother of my son. She loves hard and we all needed that. I can't voice how much shit changed while she was gone.

"Wassup ma" I said as I stepped on the green grass.

"Good morning Jermaine" she spoke as she stood from her red roses. She took her gloves off then looked up at me "hey baby see you pick these not those"

"I mean good morning mommy" I said looking at her facial expression. She then smiled and looked at Amir.

My mother moved to New Jersey two months ago, after she retired. She said she wanted to garden and you couldn't do that in the city. She said she's happy with her decision. I don't blame her, the city can stress you out especially if you from a little city in North Carolina.