As of this moment, I'm raging in blinding jealousy.
I absolutely hate everyone at this cringy fucking moment.
I want to cuss out everyone person who's "befriended" me and tell them to go fuck themselves because the moment I voice my opinion, I'm not their friends anymore.
Because it's against them.
And I fucking hate feeling this way.
I want to scream until my throat is sore, until my body is weak and I collapse.
Fuck you.
Fuck everyone who was "there for me."
Because I need you, right now.
Would you allow me to die?
Would you catch me?
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
Scream into the darkness that I don't need you when I do, so fucking much, and I can't tell you and I'm angry that you're not realizing.
Don't message me.
Don't act like you care all of a sudden.
Because before this?
...
Nevermind.
Doesn't matter.
I wonder how many times I've been talked about by "friends" in the protective shield of an inbox.
Have many times have people lied to me?
No, I'm not myself at the moment.
I don't care.
I don't care.
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