i feel like my entire life was ripped right out of my hands
like it was nothing but a toy you give to a toddler, and when the toddler is being bad, you take the toy away as punishment
but i don't know what i did wrong
ultimately, i did nothing wrong, or maybe i did who knows
i just feel like nothing is in my control and i have every right to be angry,
but i'm not
i do not feel angry
i feel lost and confused, sad and alone
i feel like i lost the most important people in my life yet they don't even care
and it's not their fault, i'm gone
it wouldn't matter if they moved on or found someone else, i would understand
i'm not there anymore, i'm always so sad
and after this, i'm going somewhere else, again
where i'm even more isolated and alone
and i don't remember a time where i ever cried this much at my own sorrow
[05.20.17]
