i hate myself,
this wasn't clear?
i. hate. myself.
why?
oh, well there are a lot of reasons
one of them being the fact that i'm in the absolute shittiest girlfriend ever
don't tell me i'm not
i bitch, and whine and complain and argue
and i get mad over nothing
legit, mad over a thought in my head
plus, i'm a terrible friend
i can whine and complain about my life but
the moment they need me?
i'm useless
maybe because i don't want to, maybe because i can't
but i know the true answer
i don't want to deal with their problems.
i'm a self-less bitch
and i wish i wasn't
i wish i actually cared about people in the way people cared about me
i only care about myself and very few others
that doesn't include the girl who's been there for me every single time i was hurt
nor the time i was in pain
because she pissed me off,
and me, being me, i don't care about her anymore
and i wish i wasn't like this
i wish i had a good personality
instead of anger and sadness
i wish i still cared about school
and i wish i had good grades
and i wish i didn't have to lie to my mother
the dumb bitch that she is
i just wish i wasn't like this
it's too late to change now
