fixing the unfixable -phan neko (BoyXBoy)

Chapter 11- Scars

Phil's P.O.V

The beating was brutal to say the least.

Kicks, punches, and even a knife at some point, have all left their mark on my now wounded flesh.

The temptation to drag myself to the bathroom and drain the remaining blood from my beat-up body was begining to take over my mind but thoughts on Dan drove them away.

Dan, I wish he was here.

Maybe then i wouldn't feel like this and I wouldn't have to disapoint him.

'No Phil, don't think like that You won't cut again. not now, not ever.'

He did mention his parents would be away for a while, maybe he could help.

Dan's P.O.V

Loud banging was the noise that woke me up and when i checked my phone i understood why i felt so out of it.

Who the hell knocks on to someones house at 2 in the morning?

"Coming" I yelled in a groggy voice.

By the sound of it, it was urgent.

When i opened the door the sight in front of me woke me right up.

It was phil, sopping wet, balling his eyes out.

His face was covered in cuts and bruses; his clothes, drenched in blood and the way his ears were firmly pressed to his head and his silky black tail wrapped around his waist made him look so helpless I couldn't stand it.

"Phil, what's happened?" I asked, moving out of the way so he could step in.

By the time we were both on the couch and he'd calmed down a little, he seemed ready to talk.

"Wait a second, you can tell me whilst i get you cleaned up." I announced, walking out of the rooms to get the first aid box.

It was whilst i cleaned him up he told me everything.

Almost everything his dad had done up until this point .

He had that many wounds that he was done talking before i had even finished his face and stomach.

I had sorted the worste ones but i had to check higher up and his arms as well as ask him if his legs and things are okay.

"C-can you take your top off? It'd be easier that way." I said to him and watched as he tensed up and shook his head no in a panicked fashion.

"Do you mind telling me why?" I  cautiously questioned, worried I'd send him into another melt down.

"Y-you'll be angry with me and you won't like me anymore." He said in a sad voice with his ears yet again flatterned.

"No i won't be angry with you and i could never just not like you. I love you Phil." I said with a soft voice trying to encourage him to tell me.

O-okay. D-do you prom-promise?" He stuttered out nervously conserning me.

The last time i had heard him stutter ,from anything but embaresment, was probably the day we met under our not-so-great circumstances.

"I promise you Phil. I won't judge you and I'll always love you." i softly spoke with a small smile.

With that he shakily grasped the bottom of his shirt and slowly pulled it up.

He had it off of his head but still attatched to his arms, covering them from view.

I could hear his laboured pants grow heavier so wrapped my arms around his small, almost shirtless, frame.

"It's okay, i promise." I said planting a soft kiss on his cheek.

With this reasurance he pulled it off the rest of the way and instantly faced the other direction.

Scars of all depths and lengths littered from his shoulders all the way up to the bottom of his wrists.

There was a particularly frightning one that ran from the tip of his wrist all the way to the end of his forearm and It seemed to of been pretty deep with it's now purplish complexion.

"Oh Phil." I siged sadly after a second or two of silance.

"Why would you do this to yourself? your so beautiful and you don't deserve any of the pain or tourment everyone seems to give you. Your perfect." I mumbled alowing silent tears to fall from my cheeks.

"No, don't cry. I'm sorry, I knew I shouldn't have shown you." He said in a rushed voice.

"Stupid. Just stop hurting people, he probably wants you gone now. A freak like you deosn't deserve someone like him anyway." I could hear him whispering to himself under his breath in a harsh voice.

"No!" I exclaimed grabbing a hold of him in a rushed yet gentle way.

"Thats not true what so ever, don't say that about yourself!" I said in a raised, desperate voice.

"It should be who your saying that stuff to me. I'm the one who was too stupid too see all that was going on." I cried, with even more tears falling than earlier.

We stayed holding eachother, tears falling, for a good half hour before i heard soft snores coming from the neko boy next to me.

"Please don't do it again." I whispered, bringing his wrist up to  my lips and planting a small kiss on the one going from begining to end, right down the centre.

"I love you." And with that I managed to fall into the dream land myself.

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This is honestly the first time I've ever wrote a story and cried whilst doing so. It's so sad :( I'll make sure to add extra fluff in the next one or two chapters to make up for it. I can't wait for it. Fluff is my favourite thing to write.