The Killer's Girl (Watty Awards 2013)

Chapter 18- A Broken Man

Iris's P.O.V.

I glared at Pinkamena. I hope the bitch knew I hated her as much as I did. "Iris... Knock that off... Seriously, you're pissing people off, specifically Pinkamena." I ignored him. "I told you Iris, knock that shit off!" he snapped. I didn't turn my head to look at him, but I flipped him off. "What're you so pissed about? Did I do something? Is something bugging you? Are you on your period? What's wrong?"

He put his hand on my shoulder. "Iris... Look at me." I turned my head. "Jeff... I don't trust them, especially not Pinkamena." He shrugged. "Iris, I can't do shit about it. I'm sorry, but it's true." I stood up. "I need some peace and quiet... I need to think." I just walked off, not in any real direction. I had no where to go to or anywhere to be, I just needed to think.

What was it about the two of them, especially Pinkamena. They just seemed like people I wouldn't generally trust. He wasn't nearly as bad as her, though. She always has a sly grin on her face, when she doesn't have a terrifying smile.

"I don't trust them, either, Iris." whispered a soft voice. "BEN... Not now. I need to be alone." BEN walked over to me. "Iris... I can treat you better than he ever could. I would love you, respect you, treat you as a woman should be. Please... Love me." I looked at him with pity. "BEN... I can't love you. I don't love you. I'm sorry." His eyes filled with his blood tears. "Why... Couldn't you at least try? Don't you know how much you mean to me? I want more than anything to just kiss you..." I felt like such a bitch for how I was treating him. "BEN... Just accept that I won't return your feelings. I'm sorry." I apologized. "Is it because of something I did...? Is it because I'm so short? I don't think four foot nine is that bad... Was it because of how quiet it I am? I... I can try to change it! I will! Iris, please tell me what I did wrong? Iris! IRIS!!!" I ignored him as best as I could. This was painful for me. I didn't love him, but his cries were so pitiful.

"Iris, I cry myself to sleep! I've tried all I can to earn your love! I have already hurt myself... I just need you." I turned around to see him showing me his arms, which were both previously covered by a green jacket. They both had many cuts on them. "BEN... I don't love you... Please... Just let me go. You're an amazing guy... But not for me." His weeping contained as I began to walk away. He screamed my name as I took each step, making tears fall from my eyes. I felt so heartless and horrible. BEN was such a sweetie, and he deserved a better person to love. I wasn't good enough for him or Jeff. They both were caring and loving, and I was a bitch.

When I came back to Jeff, he noticed my tears. "Iris, what's wrong?" I buried my face in his chest. "I'm such a bad person... Poor BEN... He loves me... And I love you." Jeff hugged me. "The big pest will get over it." I shook my head. "I feel so awful, Jeff... So awful... You two deserve better..." Jeff shook his head. "No... I kill people, in case you've forgotten. I don't deserve better." I kissed him. "You kill people... But you are so kind to me." I turned around. "We'll talk later..." I began to walk off.

I felt so confused and sad. Why was this so frustrating? I chose Jeff and didn't regret it a bit, but I wished that BEN could find love. He deserved it.

"Well, clearly you're a bitch. You let me and my boyfriend know you hate us, then turn down such a little sweetie for that dog. What do you even see in him?" Pinkamena stared at me. "Don't talk about him like that!" I snapped. "Or what? I've met girls like you, they're all talk. I'll beat your ass, then watch your boyfriend carry you off." I flipped her off. "Fuck. You. I don't like you, and I hope you know that." She laughed at me. "Wow, you really are a waste of breath." she laughed. "Oh yeah? This coming from the poster child of abortions?" I snapped. "Oh, whatever. If I wanted a bitch, I'd have gotten a dog." she replied. "Oh, I have a dog. He's got ten times the personality you will ever have. Now, if you don't mind, I'm done insulting you. When you learn how to ACTUALLY come up with a good insult, you know where to find me." With that, I stood up and began to walk. "Wow... Idiot... She has no idea who she's just fucked with."