|Recap|
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"Blushing much?" He asked looking at me and I couldn't speak. "Hey look the hotel!" I said and he smiled and looked down at his shoes and back up. "Adorable" he chuckled and I couldn't speak. TEASING MUCH!!
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A/n remember to vote ;))
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|Hazel|
As we got into the hotel and walked down the hallway and to the elevator, kellin stopped me and grabbed my hand and walked out and led me somewhere else. "How about we walk up the steps" he said and smirked. "Wait your joking? Your at like floor 7" I said and he laughed. "Jump on my back, I got this" he said. My face dropped. "No. I can't I'm like way too heavy dude" I said. "Let's see then, jump on" he said so I did what he said and he didn't even move at inch when I hopped on. His breath was still normal and it didn't chance a bit. "Are you on?" He asked. "Um yes?" I said. "Wait you are?!" He said raising his voice and turned his head around. "Holy shit!!" He yelled. I jumped off a bit startled and backed away. "What? Did I do something?" I asked while feeling my gut drop and my voice shake.
"No no your okay just jump back on. It's just your like a feather" he said and I took a deep breath and jumped back on and he walked up the steps like a normal person would and didn't have no struggle at all. I was impressed. I just shrugged and let him take me where he wants me at, perverted as it sounds.
When we got upstairs to his floor, he put me down and held the door for me. I walked into the cool aired hallway with kellin by my side. I looked up at him and he smiled and then wrapped his arm around me. I couldn't help but smile. This moment will be over because we are just hanging out for the night and it's nearly midnight and I will have to leave in the next 6 hours because it's just for the night. And I will just be known as the fan who didn't have a place to go.
My emotions just went back to the way it was and I wiped the smile off of my face and let go of Kellins hand and looked away to my other shoulder not facing kellin. I could feel his eyes on me so I felt my face burn up. "Are you okay? Oh hey I didn't get your name or number" he said. "I am Hazel... Fuck my last name. Here's my number" I said grabbing his phone from his hand and typed in my number and name in the contact and I was added as a new contact. He smiled in victory and looked up at me and his eyes sparkled. "You look like a boy getting candy" I said and he looked away awkwardly and smirked. "Oh my god you sicko!!" I yelled and we started laughing once again. Pervert.
When we got into the room I saw the bands face light up once again. "Hi again!!" Jesse smiled making me feel a bit more welcomed. Kellin made me feel very welcomed and wanted but I know that feeling will wash away soon. "Hi!" The others said and I smiled and waved. "This is Hazel. She will be sleeping on the king sized bed" Kellin said smiling proudly and I saw Justins face drop. "Yo I payed you $50 just for my own king sized bed!" Justin pouted and laughed with Kellin. Kellin handed Justin the money. "Well you get the king sized couch Mr." He said and Justin smiled. "Thank you! Thank god I don't have to share with Gabe again" and they started laughing. "He's a farter" Justin added making us all laugh.
"So tell us about yourself" Jack said turning around who was quiet during this all but seemed almost excited to see me. "Well.. My name is Hazel and I love-" I stopped myself and then this is when all the negative thoughts washed over my body. "I like starving" I said and then Justin started laughing. "What!! But food is amazing! Tell me you were being sarcastic!" He joked and I didn't know what to say. They have never met an anorexic have they?
"Justin..." Kellin sighed and stared at Justin and then Justin looked at me and I saw his face drop and he looked sad. "When was the last time you ate?" Gabe asked. "Don't worry about it..." I smiled at them feeling very nervous. "Sorry if this offends you but are you anorexic or bulimic?" One of them asked. This was it. I am going to loose it any moment. "Hey I'm so sorry please don't cry" Kellin said rushing me into a hug and I felt tears fall. I pulled away. "No just stop! You don't care about me! Don't pity talk to me! No one cared or loved me when I was fat or anything! You will just know me as a fan and nothing else because you don't know me. You don't even know what I was planning or what I'm capable of doing or how I feel!! You just don't get it" I said completely sobbing now. I was now hyperventilating.
Kellin pulled me into a stronger hug and rubbed my head and squeezed me as he shook in fear. "Hazel please.." He said now letting tears fall from his cheeks. "You know that we do love you.. And you know that if no one will be there for you, we will." He said kissing my head. "No you won't. You'll leave me like I'm your one night stand" I said tying to catch my breath. "I won't" he sighed because I took a peek at him. "You will. For fucks sake Kellin. You have a high life and I live my own low life. Your living your dream and I don't want to ruin any of that. You don't need me" I said and Kellin looked so upset. He grabbed my wrists and pulled me towards him to make me face him. "But I want to make sure I can make you happy. I'd rather be treated like a normal person because you know how much guilt I feel daily when people treat me like I'm a way better person than someone else? It hurts. I am not even going to lie. I am a man who wishes to feel normal and I want to help you" he said making my think for a long time. Why am I so stubborn.
"Fine..." I sighed and then he squeezed me in a tight hug and I couldn't pull away because he's strong. "Thank you for this amazing opportunity" he said and I forced a smile. I felt weirded out.
After a long moment of silence and me sniffing and calming down...
"Stop your being weird Quinn" and we started laughing. I felt like I've known him for years and we got so close a long time ago. Hmm.
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A/n how's the story? I'm not sure if I like it lol... But vote to show me it's going great? Thanks:)
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