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Today is me and Kellin's 11th anniversary. "Where is your daughter at this time?" I joked as I pulled up my knee sock. "Gabe has her for the night. Since we aren't going out tonight, we can have our own night and I'm cooking! Stay here and I will go get the food okay?" He said and I rolled my eyes. "Fine. Make it quick.. Be safe and I love you" I said giving Kellin a quick kiss.
I changed into something comfortable and cleaned up a bit even though it was clean already. My baby girl is 10 years old which isn't bad. She's growing up with us all and we are all so happy. I am thankful for my family.
A couple of minutes went by and I just at on the couch on my laptop and hummed to Left Alone. It was always my favorite song.. Kellin had a small, lovely voice which always made me happy. My phone started ringing and so I grabbed it and it read unknown which made me curious. I just picked it up without thinking.. "Yeah what's up?" I said in a cheerful voice. "Hello? Mrs. Quinn?" They said and I kind of felt my heart beat being skipped and hit multiple times. "Yeah" I said quietly. "Hello we wanted to inform you of your husband Mr. Quinn. He is here at the Hospis's Hospital at the ER due to being in an accident tonight" I dropped my phone and rang to the house phone and frantically dialed Gabe's number.
I waited a few seconds until he picked up. "Hey what's up girly-", "—Kellin's in the hospital. He got into a crash.." I said and hung up and grabbed my boots, coat, and car keys to the second car and hoped in and rushed my way to the hospital. Damn it Kellin! Why did you get hurt? You are smarter than that.. What did you do?
A lot was rushing through my mind and I drive to Gabe's right away and saw Gabe and Zoe exiting the house. Gabe kind of pushed Zoe towards the car once it stopped and they both hopped in with no words. Gabe would often put Zoe's hair up and take her shopping and I noticed that she had on a FaZe hoodie and her hair was up in a pretty saggy bun that looked beautiful.
I smiled at that but frowned once I noticed that we had a really bad important things to do. We were going to go see the father of my child, my only lover in the hospital. "Are you okay to drive?" Gabe asked and I nodded while shaking a bit.
after we got to the hospital, I grabbed onto Zoey's shoulders and shook with fear. Well I feared the worst. "He is in room 204" the front desk lady said and I nodded and rushed with Gabe and Zoe by my side. I held Zoe's hand and went into the elevator. Gabe was biting his nails and he fiddled with the sleeves of his sweatshirt. Once we got to the second floor, we had a short amount of time to walk to his room because it was right there near the elevators.
I felt guilty for basically dragging my daughter along. The door opened and there laid my baby hooked up to wires with his eyes fluttered shut. I let my daughters shoulders go and held my mouth to cover up a loud sob with my hand. I felt Gabe's arms wrap around me and "Sh"ed me. I shook my head and turned into his chest and let out sobs. I could just imagine how helplessly and scared Zoe felt so I hugged her so tight. I walked over to the bed with Zoe and moved Kellin's hair out of his face and just rubbed his face with the back of my palm, how parents do when they found out their baby is dying and they have last moments with them.
The doctor that was a man, walked in shortly after with Jack and Nick. "Hello Mrs. Quinn. I wanted to let you know the important things that will or will not happen later tonight. But let me ask real quick, do you want them in here to hear any details or anything?" I shook my head no and sat down next to Kellin and my hands supported my chin to look up. "Well okay, we wanted to inform you that Mr. Quinn has a possible chance of waking up but he also has a chance that he won't make it tonight or tomorrow morning. He might just give up in less than 24 hours. His organs are failing and his heart pressure is slowing down. During the accident, he lost so much blood and had so many injuries.. We just wanted to ask you for permission to put him on life support before it's too late?" He asked and I nodded and blinked with tears. Justin was already sobbing silently in the corner while Nick tried to calm him down. I've never saw Justin cry before so that triggered me a bit.
"Mommy? Is daddy going to be okay?" Zolita asked making me sob and hold her. "Not tonight" I said and sobbed some more. "We have monitors providing some things he needs but it's really up to him to wake up. Right now, he isn't in any good shape and is not having any positive symptoms. I'm sorry m'mam" he said looking down at his feet. "Thanks Doc" I said and nodded and tried to give a real smile but that didn't work.
I scooted closer to Kell and grabbed his hand. "Kellin.. We are all here for you baby. We are waiting for you and it's all up to you now. Please come back to us. We all need you" I choked on my own sobs and I could hear Justin and Gabe's melodies of sobs with mine. "Guys lets try and all be positive for Kellin. He wouldn't want us to be crying over him" Nick's voice quivered as he spoke.
After a couple of minutes, his heart monitor sped and a little alarm thingy went off. I jumped up. And it woke everyone. "Doctors what's happening?" I said and we were softly kicked out of the room. I was panicking and I started crying. "We're losing him!" I heard someone yell and I started crying harder. "Mom what's going on! Is dad okay?" Zoe asked and I shook my head no. "No no this can't be happening" I sobbed and held her as if the world was ending.
"Clear!"
"Nothing!"
"Clear! Take two!"
"Nothing"
"Again!!"
Beep.. Beep... Beep..
I fell on my knees and lost my breath to tears. He's fine Hazel. Gabe held my side along with Jack and they tried calming me down. Zoe was crying and Nick had no other choice to evacuate her out of here along with Justin because he was a wreck.
A couple of hours past and we were patiently waiting for Kellin to just wake up and be like "it was just an prank bro" but nothing happened. I was fearing the same thing would happened that happened a couple of hours ago. I blinked some tears away and slowly cocked my head and stared at my baby laying restless in that white hospital bed. I shut my eyes and laid back and wished things would go back to normal. God please. Where are you when I need you the most? I'm begging you please.. Please bring him back to us..
I started crying silently. I heard Jack move towards Kellin and things kind of went to where they were meant to be. I watched as Jack grabbed Kellin's hand and gave him a nod and then Kellin's eyes squinted while they were shut and then blink blink blink.. They fluttered open and his beautiful green eyes popped out. His face was pure yellow but that didn't change anything.
He had woken up
