Goodbye || j.s. au

Chapter Twenty//Change

I walk outside and sit on the steps right in front of my door.

20 minutes. I thought.

Twenty minutes and off I go, to New York. And ten minutes ago, when my lips were touching Jacob's lips. I just wish I can stay there forever.

But things change.

As you grow up, everything changes.

The world changes. Our bodies change. Our decisions change. Friendship. Everything.

This is just one of them.

Maybe..maybe Jacob and I weren't meant for each other. Maybe this is why I can't be with him.

No. Stop that Abby. Stop thinking that.

"Get out of the way!" Kira nudged her foot against my hip, forcing me to get up. She walks past me holding a huge box.

I sigh and walk to the kitchen, luckily mom is there.

"This is it?" I ask, though I know it's pointless. We're moving. And that's that.

"Yes, darling. We're moving. And that's that." She repeated my thought.

I already knew, but it seemed even sadder hearing it out loud.

*~*~*~*~*~*

I walk back outside and sit on the sidewalk. I was deep in thought when I felt warm hands wrap around me from behind.

"Good luck in New York." The person whispered in my ear.

I smiled and turned around.

"Hey, Jacob."

He smiled back, probably the last time I'll ever see it. "Hey." He replied.

We sat in awkward silence for a few minutes. Finally, I spoke up.

"Don't fall in love with other girls when I'm gone." I smiled to make it seem like I was joking, but I meant it. I didn't want to lose him.

He chuckled. "I promise."

*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Now, here I was. Boarding the plane, leaving Jacob forever.

I wanted to cry, but I cried enough already.

I had to grow up. Be brave.

Just because I'm moving, doesn't mean I'll lose Jacob forever. Right?

I hope so.

Now, I have boarded the plan and quickly found my seat. Next to Kira's.

"I call dibs on the window seat." I told her.

"Whatever." She replied.

The ride was long and boring. I stayed quiet most of the time, only speaking when it's necessary. Like asking the flight attendant for more water, or "politely" asking Kira to move her legs to I can get up and use to bathroom.

And my thoughts would always wander back to Jacob, and how I truly miss him.

I closed my eyes and took a long, deep breath. Then I slept the rest of the way.