Goodbye || j.s. au

Chapter Twenty-Eight//Kira

Abby's Pov

I was awoken by the familiar beep of my alarm clock, telling me to get my lazy butt up.

This afternoon, I was going to hang out with Nichole and Ben at the mall downtown. I yawned widely and sat up.

There was a loud knock on my bedroom door that startled me as it opened.

"I don't remember saying 'come in,' dad." I teased as he walks in and grabs my laptop. "Wait, dad, what are you doing?" I get up and take my laptop back from him.

"Your mom took mine," He mutters.

"At least ask next time. Here you go." I hand him the large device.

It's mid-summer break and I walked out the room yawning. Jacob visited me months ago and nothing happened between us during his stay. I don't know how to feel about him, I'm so confused. One boy, a thousand feelings. He makes me so pissed, he was my first love, first heartbreak. I never wanna see him again, I never want to be friends with him. But I also just want to forgive him for everything and start over.

I don't know. This situation is a mess.

I realize that it's around 9am and this is the earliest I've woken up for the past month.

It shocks me though, to know that I'll be in high school in less than a month. Yikes. I'm going to a theatre arts high school. Acting is something I really love now and I'm honestly super dedicated to it. Who would've known?

"Why are you up this early?" Kira asks, taking a box of cereal out of the cabinet. I reply with a simple 'I don't know' and ask her the same question.

"Mom asked me to go run some errands real quick at 10. Wanna come?"

Kira is one of those weird people who put the milk before the cereal. I watch her do that and get a little disturbed.

"Sure, I'll come. After that do you mind dropping me off at the mall? And also, please don't make cereal that way." I laugh and make a bowl of cereal for myself, the correct way.

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On the car ride to the mall, Kira brings up something I wouldn't expect she'd talk about.

"How's you and Jacob?"

My mouth slightly drops. "You knew?"

Kira snorts. "Oh my God! Do you not remember me walking in on you and Jacob's little smooch fest? And I didn't need to see that to know that you had feelings for him, I saw the way you look at him–and the way he looks at you."

I was surprised. Kira noticing things about me? She hardly ever cares about what I do.

She continues on. "And remember the last time he came to visit? I could see it in your eyes that seeing him hurt you. What's up?"

I bite my lip. Should I really tell Kira? I mean, I don't even what's going on myself. And she never asked me about my life before. I think this is the closest she's ever been to being my actual sister.

"Um, I don't know." I lie. Saying I don't know is more simple than explaining things one by one.

"Are you sure? You can talk to me about anything." She looks at me once we reach a stop light. "I know that you never really talked to me about stuff like this ever, but you never look fully happy these days. Even when Rachel comes to visit. Mom and dad may not notice, but I do. Is there something wrong?" The light turns green and Kira doesn't notice until a lot of cars are beeping behind her. "Ugh.."

I'm known in my family for being the best at hiding my emotions. But this time, it's just hard. My eyes start tearing up. "I miss him. I've only dated him for a while, but Jacob made me really happy. Everything is clear now with him and Penny. He's not dating her. And I feel stupid for expecting that he'd come back to me and we'd be a thing again but..nothing. Nothing's happened and it's really hurting me. I want him back..." My voice was cracking, and I was trying my best not to sob so much. "And another thing, he's getting way more famous now! All the attention he's getting, tours he's going on, he's moved on. He clearly has. Which is why he's never talked to me since then. He's forgotten about me." I haven't cried about this before, but I have thought about it way too much. Has Jacob really forgotten about me? I guess all the thoughts and feelings I've had bottled up just overflowed and now I'm having a breakdown.

By now, Kira would've been making fun of me. Telling me how ugly I look when I'm crying. Saying that I'm stupid to like a boy this much. But, she doesn't. Instead, she pulls over and tells me to walk with her. We're out in the streets now and walking with a whole bunch of people going on about there day. I try to cover up my tears while Kira has her arms around me, taking me to wherever she wants. We finally stop at a quiet bookstore and Kira takes me instead.

I finally get to look at her and see that she was crying a little bit as well. Her mascara was smudged slightly. "I'm sorry you're going through that. Sorry that I'm crying too. You're situation just reminds me of mine. With Seth and everything." She sniffles.

Seth was her boyfriend that she broke up with before we moved to New York.

"I love him, and being without him just sucks. He's moved on now and has a new girlfriend who he really loves. I don't really mind, as long as he's happy. But it's breaking me inside. It hurts to see someone you love so much love someone else. But this isn't about me. This is about you. Abby, you're still young. I am too. But your feelings are real towards Jacob. I can tell. You'll do anything to try and be with him again. I don't know about him but I can tell that he'd do the same. I just think you shouldn't give up. There's still a chance." She's stopped crying now. I wish I could say the same about myself.

"I don't know. See, I'm so confused! A lot has happened. Every time I see him, I either wanna punch or kiss him, it's so confusing it's making me crazy." I confess my thoughts. It's still so weird to see Kira show the side of her that cares for me.

She laughs. "Aw, my sister is growing up. Experiencing boy troubles." She gives me a warm hug. A real hug. "It's alright. I got your back through this. You'll be okay, trust me."

I smile. For the first time in a long time, I don't feel completely alone. I hug my sister back tightly.

I may not have Jacob, but I still have my parents, my friends, and most importantly, Kira. And I know that they'll all have my back through whatever, and I couldn't be more thankful.

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