The Girl With Wings

Scars to your Beautiful

Joanie's PoV 

 TRIGGER WARNING: self loathing, and suicidal thoughts.  

I sat in the room not caring about  the bustling noises of the hospital. He left you. I shake my head and curl up on my bed. He doesn't care about you, why should he? 

  She just wants to be beautiful
She goes unnoticed, she knows no limits
She craves attention, she praises an image
She prays to be sculpted by the sculptor
Oh, she don't see the light that's shining
Deeper than the eyes can find it
Maybe we have made her blind
So she tries to cover up her pain and cut her woes away
'Cause cover girls don't cry after their face is made  

He never cared, your weak, He doesn't need you. I felt a hand on my shoulder, I turned my head to see who it was. Lily smiled weakly. I felt tears start to fall down my face. Lily pulled me into a hug. "Shh, It's ok, it will be ok Joanie." Lily tries to reassure me as I cry on her shirt, my tears seeping onto her shirt. Your WEAK! You don't deserve to live!

  But there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
Oh-oh, oh-oh
And you don't have to change a thing, yhe world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful  

Lily leaves soon, going to talk to the doctors, asking about my condition and when I will be able to get out of the hospital. Your Pathetic! You can't even die right! Why would anyone care?! You let Jade use you and now look at  you! HE LEFT! I started to cry, my tears stopping Lily from talking to the doctor and running in here to hold and hug me. 

  She has dreams to be an envy, so she's starving
You know, covergirls eat nothing
She says beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything
What's a little bit of hunger?
I could go a little while longer, she fades away
She don't see her perfect, she don't understand she's worth it
Or that beauty goes deeper than the surface
Oh, oh
So to all the girls that's hurting
Let me be your mirror, help you see a little bit clearer
The light that shines within  

Lily holds me close as I cry. "Joanie, I know you don't want to hear this right now but I have to tell you since he isn't here. He loves you, he really does, But he needs to forge his own path. I talked to him before he left. If he can get out of this life, let him. He deserves it as much as you. So when you get out of this hospital your coming to live with me for a bit. Ok?" I nodded tears still falling down my face. Lily laid on my bed with me, holding me close

  There's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

  Oh-oh, oh-oh

And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful  

Your Pathetic! Die! Pathetic and horrible and  ugly, you don't deserve to be alive. I laid there numbly. Tears still on my face, He left you, he doesn't care. Hours pass, finally the doctors take Lily away. "I'll be here tomorrow, Don't worry."

  No better you than the you that you are (no better you than the you that you are)

No better life than the life we're living (no better life than the life we're living)
No better time for your shine, you're a star (no better time for your shine, you're a star)
Oh, you're beautiful, oh, you're beautiful  

He left He left He left He left He left He left, Choruses through my head. He was my family and he left. 

Evan left me an didn't even say goodbye.

 And there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
Oh-oh, oh-oh
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful  

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~A/N~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hey guys, so Joanie seems to have taken a turn for the worst. You guys probably thought Sam left her...didn't you? I thought about it but then I remember what Evan's character id like. 

This chapter connects to me directly, for awhile I used to think like this, not the 'He left' thing but the 'Your Pathetic and Weak'. Heck, I sometimes still think that. But my friends, like Lily to Joanie, Have always been there to pick me out of the muck. MeghanJackson   _InvisibleLover_   Sam12yrs and many other of my friends have helped me a lot. I thank them from the bottom of my heart. 

To those people who are losing hope remember this. There is always someone who cares, No matter who you are, there is ALWAYS some one who cares about you. There is always someone who see you in the muck, pick you up, clean you up and help you. Even if there doesn't seemed to be anyone there is. If you feel this way and have no one to care about you, message me. I talk to you and help you to the best of my abilities.  

Love you guys as always,

~ Madison Valdez