Are We Meant To Be? *2nd book of the Other Half Trilogy*

~ Ch. 47 ~

                Ezra's POV

    It's been two days since Acarna told us about the information and we've decided that this "weapon" or "item" or whatever it is, is too valuable not to have so, we are heading back to that planet tonight.  And we are bringing Acarna along. This is probably a really bad idea, seeing as how we haven't even told her that we are going back. Speaking of Acarna.........where is she?? I haven't seen her all morning. Might as well go look for her. It took me awhile but, I finally found her and it was no surprise that she was training. And from the way that she looks now, I think she's been training for hours. I sighed, wishing that she knew that she didn't have to train so hard now. I felt another presence behind me and saw that it was Master Obi-wan. I looked back at the sound of a saber hitting the wall.

    Acarna had thrown both her lightsabers at a target and both hit the mark. She fell to her knees and sat there, staring at the ground. "Damn you! Why'd you do this to me?! How could you do this to me?!" Acarna yelled. I grew concerned and, probably against my better judgment, I ran over to her and hugged her. She didn't push me away or even acknowledge that I was here. So, I tried speaking to her.

    "Acarna.......what's the matter?" I asked her, than realized that it was probably the wrong thing to ask. "I hate them! Why'd they decide to torture me like this?!" she wailed as I held her closer to me. "Who?" I asked. "My stupid emotions! My heart is all fucked up now!! I don't know what I'm supposed to do!! I-I...........let everyone down.....even Mother." Acarna explained. "It's not your fault. It's our Mothers fault. She forbid you from allowing you to express your feelings. She made you do things against your will. Against your better judgement. It's ok though. Because I've been there too. I can help you through this." I explained to her, making eye contact with her. She seemed to snap out of it as she pushed me away and stood up.

    "You don't get it!! You may love me but you don't know who I am!! I'm torn between this new life and who I was meant to be! And no matter how hard I try I can't escape these new feelings!! My life has fallen apart and I don't know how to pick up these pieces!! I was never meant to be here!! I was never supposed to fall in love with my other Half! You should never have tried to get me to come with you!! I should've stayed on my ship! I should be married by now! I should be training my Padawan, who probably thinks I've abandoned her!! WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME?!?!? Why Ezra?? Why??" Acarna said. I could feel all of her pent up emotions being poured out into what she just said. I honestly don't know what to say to her. I was about to stand up and she fell back on her knees. I could sense the sadness that she was trying to hide. I could see her struggle to keep the tears in her eyes from spilling over. I went over to her and was about to hold her hand when Kanan and Anakin came in. Kanan came over to me and Anakin......Dad came over to Acarna and hugged her. He gave me a look asking what happened and I sent everything that just happened to him through our father-son bond through the Force. He understood and asked Kanan if he would take me somewhere else so he could talk to Acarna in private. We nodded and left them.

              Anakin's POV

    I held Acarna as Ezra and Kanan left us. I could feel all of her emotions at once. They hit me as if I was hit by  a speeder bike. With her being trained in the ways of the Sith and living with Ahsoka, it only makes sense for her to feel this way. I sent calming waves to Acarna through the Force and she finally relaxed a little. Key word 'little', I could feel her body still tensed.

    "I understand that you are still new to this kind of life. I know you are confused but, nothing is Ezra's fault. He and I only want the best life for you." I said, softly. She pushed my away, using a bit of the Force to help her. I stood up as she did, confusion clearly on my face. She looked at me, she was in-between mad and upset. Great........did I say something that upset her?

    "That is a loud of bullshit!! The best life that you both could've given me would've been the life that where we were all together and ruling the Galaxy!! Like what Mother said she wished for!! I used to think that when Mother said that you betrayed us and took Ezra away that you were a selfish bastard!! I actually wanted you to be dead!! Now my life is torn upside-down by both you and Ezra!!" Acarna yelled. "Sweetie........y-" "DON'T!! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR USELESS AND LAME EXCUSES!!!!" Acarna screamed from the top of her lungs. Her eyes were Sith gold as she used the force to summon her saber. She put it on her hilt and took a breathe and walked out, mumbling about getting a drink. It's official, I've failed as a Father.

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[ AHH!!!!!!!!!! I HAD SO MUCH WRITER'S BLOCK FOR THIS CH!!!!!!!! TT.TT

    Why is Acarna having a mental breakdown?? Could it be because she saw Zalaan for the first time in months?? Or could she be trying to ignore her feelings for a certain purple someone?? Has Anakin truly failed as a Father??

    Specter 7 out!!!!!!!!!!! ]