The Struggle : "Life Of A Teen Dad"

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-Che::

Aaliyah is six months now and she is such a cry baby. I knew having a child was gonna be tough but not this tough. Aaliyah is so spoiled by her daddy its crazy. She is so used to him picking her up that when he's not around she wants me to constantly pick her up. Plus she has acid reflex. So she throws up a lot.

She gets hungry a lot too so she is growing out of her clothes. I been asking Cameron for money Aaliyah but he is too busy now a days. No we ain't together nomore. He broke up with me almost a month ago. I'm am heart broken because I really love Cam. I want us to be a little family like he used to love telling me about.

He just isn't the same any more. When we were together he never trusted me. I mean I can't blame him. I did him dirty but that was in the past. Then he had the nerve to make me move back in with my mama.

Cameron was a lil over protective of me too. Asking me who I was talking to on the phone. Where I'm going. And sometimes he'd try to make me stay in the house. Like no I stay in the house everyday with Aaliyah. I don't wanna spend time with her all the time. I love her but shit she gets on my nerves with all that crying and shit.

I heard Aaliyah crying. I rolled my eyes as I got up and went into her room. I am glad Aaliyah has her own room. I dont have to worry about her ruining my company.

I haven't talked to Matayo since he beat me. We have nothing to talk about anyway. He shouldn't of did what he did.

I did miss him and his money. He spoiled my ass left and right. Cameron used to do the same but now he won't give me a damn dollar.

It was a little warm outside so I decided to take Aaliyah outside for a walk. She went back to sleep so I took a shower first. After I was done. went into he room and Aaliyah was wide awake sucking on her chubby fingers. My baby girl is adorable she looks just like her damn daddy I can't stand it at times. "Hey mamas you ready to get washed up" I asked her while picking her up. She said something in "baby talk" I laughed and sat her in her little tub. I turned the water on and waited til it was warm. I turned it off and grabbed Aaliyah's soap. I washed her body and her hair. My baby girl wasn't baldhead and I was truely blessed cause her mama bald head.

She started crying, she hates when I wash her hair but she'll get over it. "Aaliyah its ok I'm almost done" I said trying to calm her down. She did and then smiled up at me.

I took out the stopper and grabbed her out her tub wrapping her rubber ducky towel around her.

I took her in the room and layed her down. I dried her off and then lotioned her body. She sneezed. "God bless you" I said. She started laughing.

I dressed her in some blue tights and her blue and black polka dot shirt. I put a blue bow/head band around her head. Leaving her curly hair out. I sat her in her play pin since she is now trying to crawl. I don't need for my baby to be in the hospital.

I got dressed in the same colors as Aaliyah and curled my weave so we really were matching. I put on some lip gloss packed Aaliyah's bag and we were ready to go.

I walked downstairs and went on to the porch. I put Liyah in her stroller and began walking to the park. Aaliyah was talking her ass off as we we were walking. I kind of miss the days when me and Asia would sit at the park for hours and talk about any and everything when Cameron was out selling drugs.But Asia then fucked up and decided to choose that ugly ass bitch Marshai over me. Fuck them!

Ima get my pay back soon though. I'm just might fuck Tez to get her mad. I don't want him though. He a good boy now I heard and now that bitch pregnant by him.

Asia got another thing coming thinking she can just hit me while I'm pregnant and shit. Her ass better sleep with one eye open.

I sat down at a table and unstrapped Aaliyah out her stroller and sat her on my lap. I gave her her bottle of apple juice. Its too hot for milk. I git on instagram while she drank her juice. I took a picture of her. Then I saw a shadow behind me. I turned around and it was a guy. "Can I help you" I asked. "Nah but Matayo said come over to his car he gotta speak to you" the guy said. Really Matayo couldn't come over here his damn self.

"Nah tell him we ain't got nothing to say to each other" I said and put Aaliyah in her stroller. The guy nodded his head and walked away. As I was changing Liyah I felt someone tap me on my shoulder. "Look tell Matayo I dontwanna speak to him" I said turning around. But it was Matayo.

"Why don't you wanna talk to me" he asked. I sighed and put Liyah's tights back on. "Hey lil mama" Matayo said to her. She giggled and sucked on her hands. (Bad habit of hers).

"You gone answer me huh" he asked sitting down in my seat, so I sat next to him. He pulled me on his lap"Look Matayo we ain't got nothing to say to each other"I said. "Che'Onna baby come on now I'm sorry. I miss you so much" he claimed. "No you don't.You beat me and then called me out my name. I know you were mad that she wasn't yours but I mean I was honest and told you I didnt know if she was yours or not" I said. He turned me towards him, we were now face to face. "I'm sorry baby I promise you I ain't gone do it again" he said. He kissed my neck touching my spot. I got wet and I guess he sensed it. Cause he put his fingers in my tights. "Look Matayo I'm with Cameron" I lied. He took out his fingers "No the fuck you ain't. He broke up with ya ass a month ago. You always lying Che that's what I hate about ya dumb ass" he raised his voice. I got off him and strapped Aaliyah in. "I don't need this Matayo this conversation is over" I said pushing Aaliyah but he grabbed me.

"Baby no I'm sorry please let's just start over. I want you back. I miss you and I love you. I can take care of you way better then Cameron and these other niggas" he said holding my waist.

I sighed. I guess I could forgive him. I did miss him and I still have mad feelings for him. So I guess I'll give him another try.

"Ok Matayo I'll take you back but you better not fuck up again or I'm done fucking with you" I said turning around to face him. I wrapped my arms around him and he smiled down at me and kissed me. I missed his kisses.