In Love With My Best Friend

Chapter 19: Pancakes and Shopping Gone Wrong

•Kacey•

I wake to a feather light kiss on my cheek and I smile, knowing who it's from.

"Morning, Sunshine." I mumble softly.

"Good morning pretty." She says still cuddling into me the same as we were before we fell asleep.

Despite freaking out and running away last night, I feel a lot better. I finally came to terms with myself and my feelings. I like April. For the first time I like someone in a way that reaches beyond friendship. I feel a lot more comfortable in my own skin now. The next thing I need to do is tell April how I feel about her. But that's easier said than done. I mean there is a big chance that she doesn't feel the same way and I could be completely ruining our friendship.

I don't think I could go long without April's happiness. She fills everyday with smiles and plenty of laughter, something I really need in my life. Her smile is the most dazzling thing that I've ever seen. I feel like I could stare at her soft features for hours on end and still be enticed by her beauty. I know that it seems soft of me, but like have you seen this chick? She is the most beautiful person. She has a heart of gold and a rockin' body, a rare combination these days.

"What's going on in that head of yours so early in the morning?" April asks as she runs a hand up and down my back soothingly.

"Nothing just collecting my thoughts." I say with a soft smile. Damn if only she knew that it was her clouding my brain.

"Well not to be pushy or anything like that but are you ready to tell me why you ran yesterday?" April asks and can see in her blue eyes that she is really concerned for me more than anything. I feel that since I can't tell her the complete truth I need to tell her something so that she won't worry and I won't feel bad for lying.

"I just came to a realization on some things and it freaked me out for a bit but then I decided it didn't really matter what others thought of it because if I'm happy that's all that matters. So I'm fine now." I tell her.

See that wasn't a lie, it just wasn't the complete truth. She knows now that there is no need to worry and I think that one day she will find out the whole truth, as I plan to tell her how I feel. Yeah I'm scared but if I don't tell her it would hurt worse to wonder if she returned my feelings then having her ignore me for a few days.

"As long as you are okay now. You scared the shit out of me yesterday. I hate seeing you like that, it breaks my heart. All I wanted was to find you when you took off running out that door. I don't think I've ever ran that fast in my life and that's saying something." April says placing a soft kiss to my forehead.

This girl is driving me crazy. These light kisses make me want more and all I want to do is lay in her arms. If she keeps this up I don't know how long I can go before I jump her bones.

"I'm sorry I made you worry. I was acting irrationally and not thinking things through at the time." I apologize to her. The thing that really weighs heavily on my mind is the fact that I screamed at April and told her that I don't need her. I need April with every ounce of my being because she is in fact my sunshine.

"It's fine, I'm just glad that you are safe." she says placing yet another small kiss to my cheek.

God she really is touchy today. It's probably because of last nights events. I think everyone will be keeping an eye on me for today but in all honesty I don't blame them. My guess is we will be doing something as a group where we can all stick together.

"Oh I forgot to tell you we are going to the outlet stores in the town down the road. Ash came in here and told me before I woke you up." April tells me and I smile. I was right we will be shopping as a group.