♥Fated to Love You♥_KathNiel Fanfiction

Memories of Pain

As I was reading it.

Tears flow continuously from my eyes. Habang binabasa ko ang sulat nia. Kung gaano nia ako kamahal. Unti-unting bumabalik lahat ng alaala. Napapangiti ako kahit naiyak, kung paano kami magkulitan, kung paano nia napagbago ang isang basagulerong katulad ko nung nagaaral pa kami. She never stops kasi sabi nia mabait daw talaga ako. Hahaha! Never in my life I felt that someone will say that I have a good heart. She where there during my worst day when my dad left us. She was the one who always took care of me when I left our house to prove that I was independent enough to live my own because after what dad did mom forgive him, how can she say that I should forgive someone who makes my mom miserable.

At first I was too harsh to Ella but she never give up. She always says that if I will always go together with her in the church God will heal my broken heart. And her mission is for me to forgive my dad. How can she leave me if her mission is not yet accomplished?

How God could took her even if she was not yet done with her purpose. While reading the last part she just proves me that she is different from any other girls. That no one can be better than her. She donates her heart. Ang nagiisang organ kung bakit pa siya tumagal sa ospital ang nagiisang organ na nanatiling stable sa katayuan nia nung mga panahon nay un. Nirereserved nia daw un para sa tao na magfufulfill ng mission.

How can she just simply let go of her life and donate it to someone whom she doenst even know. Hindi nia ba lam na sa pagkamatay nia para na rin akong namatay.  I remember the last day she told me how she loved me so much.

Flashback

“Babe pp..pde ba na bago ko m..matulog ngayon lu…mabas tayo ng hospital. Can we go to our favou..(cough)rite pl..place?” she said as she was running for her breath.

“oo naman. Syempre naman para sa mahal ko.”  I hugged her.

“pwede ba ung paglubog ng araw nandun na tayo? She speaks na parang hirap na hirap na sya. With that kinabahan ako. Di ba ung sa mga movie ganun. Nah bird brain pelikula un. God will make a way para gumaling si Ella sabi ko sa sarili ko.

We were on the shore sitting on the bench which I made as a gift for her during our first monthsary. All our unforgettable memories happened here. Out first meeting nung nagcocollect sya ng shells. The place where I realized that she was important to me, dahil dito nia ko dinala nung gusto nia ilabas lahat ng galit ko at pati sya nasigawan ko which made her cry like a child. Our first kiss, our first fight. Ung araw na sinagot niya ko. A place where we say our promises. Pero dito rin ung lugar kung san niya sinabi na may sakit siya.

 This place was full of memories of us. At hindi naman siguro dito ung place na iiwan niya na ko ng tuluyan.

“Babe where here!, Kaya mo pa ba? Gusto mo ba  bumalik na tayo?” nagaalala kong tanong habang ginigising sya.

“Hindi saglit lang. Hintayin natin. “ she said while smiling.

“Babe, pagnawala ako magmamahal ka pa. Ayoko Makita kang malungkot kung hindi magagalit ako sayo!” she jokingly says that isn’t she. Sabi niya gagaling sya. We always pray together. And she said that if I believe God will hear it.

“No, wag ka na magsalita. I don’t like your joke. It scares me.!” as I caressed her face and hair.

“Don’t be. Lahat tayo dun pupunta. I will be living soon. Or maybe later.” Sabi niya habang pinupunasan ko ang tulo ng luha nia.

“Hahahaha! Ikaw talaga. You never fail to make me laugh!” I laugh but I was totally scared of she says. She can’t leave me. 

“Gusto ko pag nasa langit na ko makikita ko na may nagpapasaya sayo. At sisiguraduhin ko na yung taong yun ay yung ibubulong ko kay Papa God na ibigay niya sayo para mafulfill ung mission ko. You deserve to be happy even without me Mr. Daniel John Ford Padilla. Always remember that I Angela Fernandez will always love you ever from afar. I will find the right girl for you. Someone who is strong and hard headed enough para matagalan ang Mr Padilla na tulad mo.” She said habang kinukurot ang ilong ko. Haizt ang babaeng talagang to. Nagagawa pa niya ang magbiro at tumawa sa kalagayn niya eh ako nga prang nadudurog na habang nakikita yung kalagayan niya.

“Babe magpakasala na kaya tayo?” Seryosong tanong ko.

“No,babe.” She calmly said. “you deserve a happy ending. And that fairytale ending is not meant to be with me. God has its own purpose. You deserve a right princess in your story. Ganito na lang isipin mo na lang na ako ang fairy Godmother mo sa kwento at hindi ako ang prinsesa.” She smiles while tears are falling from her eyes. She is still holding my hand siguro dahil nahihirapan na rin sya magsalita. Sa paghawak na yon ayoko nay un bitawan pinapahiwatig niya na parang iiwan nia na ko. “ This may be my last words for you. Find her, find your princess. You never know she may have my heart. Because my heart only belongs to you, promise me that you will be happy and marry that princess. And to her you will say and hear the word that will last a lifetime and that is I love you. But for now, let me tell you that I love you.” She closed her eyes and so was I. we took a deep breath. The we return to the hospital.

After her last words on that same day she died at 12 midnight. I was not there. The reason why I don’t have the guts to see her family. I should have known and feel it, that she was leaving. I should have but I wasn’t . I believe that she will be okay. But God never give her another chance. On that day I said to myself I won’t call on Him anymore. He never hears my prayer. Alam ko nasaktan ko si Ella dahil hindi na ko pumupunta ng church but I just cant.