August 26, 2013
I FUCKING HATE CADE. I FUCKING HATE MALES. I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE. I FUCKING HATE LIFE. I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING.
SO THERE'S THIS GUY AND LAST YEAR HE WOULD ALWAYS CALL ME AND MY FRIENDS ANNOYING IN ART AND WE WOULDN'T BE DOING ANYTHING WRONG AND IF WE TRIED TO DEFEND OURSELVES THE FUCKING TEACHER WOULD SIDE WITH CADE, THE JERK GUY, AND IT WAS SO FUCKING ANNOYING. SOME TIMES HE WOULD BE NICE THEN THE NEXT DAY- BACK TO BEING A TOTAL ASSHOLE. BUT THIS SUMMER WE WERE KIND OF ACQUAINTANCES AND LATELY HES BEEN A TOTAL FUCKING DICK FACE! HE RANDOMLY SAID THAT I WAS ONE OF THE TOP THREE MOST ANNOYING PEOPLE IN THE CLASS. BUT HE NEVER SAID IT TO ME. HE ALWAYS SAID IT MY FRIENDS AND THEN WOULD TRY TO TALK TO ME IN CLASS. I WOULD IGNORE HIM BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT HE DOES TO ME. AND TODAY I FINALLY REACHED MY BREAKING POINT. I WAS WITH MY FRIENDS AND I WAS GOING TO CONFRONT HIM IN PERSON BUT HE SAW ME WITH THEM AT THE PARK WHERE WE WANTED TO MEET HIM AND HE DIDN'T COME. HE TEXTED MY FRIEND SAYING 'I gotta go eat. and i dont like nikki' I WAS SO PISSED AND I TRIED TO NOT SHOW IT BECAUSE SYD AND KAMI WOULD PROBABLY MISREAD THE ANGER AND I GOT HOME AND TEXTED HIM SAYING "Ok I'm fucking sick of you. What the hell did I do to make you hate me so much? I don't care if you hate me! I'm mad that I don't know why!" AND HE TEXTED BACK WITH FUCKING THIS: "Hahaha I'm only mad at you cuz you wouldn't even talk to me n you said you don't even like me.. as a friend so ya"
FIRST OF FUCKING ALL: I HAD BEEN TRYING TO TALK TO HIM BUT HE COMPLETELY IGNORES ME AND I NEVER EVER SAID I DIDN'T LIKE HIM AS A FRIEND! I TEXTED HIM BACK AND SAID: "I said I was mad at you because last year in art you were always being a jerk!" HE HAD THE NERVE TO NOT TEXT BACK SO ABOUT TEN MINUTES AFTER WAITING I SENT ANOTHER TEXT SAYING: "I seriously don't understand you Cade. You act like we're friends then the next time you see me you act like I'm nothing. I'm sick of your games. I'm tired of trying to figure out your signals. If you hate me, tell me not everyone else. If you want to be friends, fucking act like it. Grow some balls."
HE STILL HASN'T TEXTED BACK AND IT'S BEEN ABOUT AN HOUR AND HE HASN'T REPLIED. I DON'T THINK HE'S REPLYING. AND IF ONE MORE FUCKING PERSON SAYS "He's just acting lie that because he likes you!" I WILL RIP YOUR FUCKING HEAD OFF. I KNOW HE DOESN'T LIKE ME BECAUSE HE LIKES THE PRETTY AND ATHLETIC GIRLS. I'M SHORT, UGLY, FAT, STUPID, PATHETIC, AND WORTHLESS. NOW PARDON ME As I go cry myself to sleep because I will NEVER BE BEAUTIFUL, SKINNY, OR LOVED.
