October 2, 2013
Soo.... um. It's been a while since this feeling started. I've always had a crush on this guy and I thought I stopped. I really should have known better. I always saw him in the hall between classes and each time I knew I wanted to just stop and talk to him, make him smile, rest in his arms. I know I shouldn't, but I can't help it. The worst part is that he's my brother's best friend. I don't know what to do! Last night I was at the volleyball game because I had pep band, he did too, and he also had to stay and work the school's ice cream stand. I talked to him a lot and when my friend left to sit down; I mentioned that I should go follow her and he said, "Or you could just stay here." He pointed to his side and smiled widely at me. That made my heart flip, but I couldn't take him up on that offer. I knew that he favored me, but I also knew that Sydnee, one of my best friends, liked him too. What I don't know is if he just likes me more because he knows me more because of my brother, or if he actually likes me. We like most of the same things, and we hate most of the same things. He lets me do things like dig in his wallet, draw on him, write my initials on his forearm, he even gives me high fives and knuckles all the time. He doesn't do that stuff with my friends, or his friends really. He is one of those guys that keeps to himself a lot, I'm glad he's let me in. I always feel like I'm an actress in a movie with him. I might write a chapter in Murder The Moment about our little night that seemed most like a movie scene. If you guys have any help or advice for me I'd be sooo grateful!! I love you all! <3 <3
p.s. I'm actually in a pretty good mood today! :D It's been awhile since this kinda happy time fell over me. It's nice. But it only comes after I interact with Will, the boy this chapter is about.
