January 31, 2014
So yeah, this really cannot be Jayyson. He isn't alive. This is not real. But hey? Why not just go along with it? That's just what I do.
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NEVER had I ever thought I'd be in a love triangle, but here I am... in a love triangle. At one point there is Jayyson, Will is at another, and a boy named Max is at the final point. They all have me trapped in the center of them. Shall we look at my options?
Jayyson- Apparently faked his suicide that sent me spiraling downward into hell and is now apparently alive and living in Europe. He is coming back to the U.S. soon, and he's admitted he likes me. Ok, so what? I like him back.
Will- My older brother's best friend and Deb's crush. He always called me really cute things and left me speechless. This was all right because, guess what! I liked him back.
Max- Former jerk, that was how he flirted. He did the plays and ran in cross country, as do I. He has the typical football player build, shorter and broad. Along with football he plays basket ball. Yeah he's quite sporty, not like me, but he's so sweet, I kinda like his vibrant blue eyes and dimples. Add to that people tell me he's "like hopelessly in love" with me. Like I said, I kinda like him too.
So who do I chose?
The one that left me hopeless?
The guy that picked me up again?
The boy who's my sweet opposite?
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February 10, 2014
I chose Max.
Jayyson can't just up and leave, then return, say he loves me too, and expect me to not be angry. He needs to rebuild my trust, but quite frankly, ever since I told him that he hasn't even fucking tried. So why should I bother if he won't?
Will wasn't ever going to ask me; he's too shy. Besides it'd be too awkward because he's my older brother's best friend, and Deb likes him. She'd be annoying about it. I know I hate her, but I'm not heartless. I can't just take him from her even though he was mine first.
So I chose Max. Here goes!
