You Are: Sequel to "Jacob Sartorius" [Completed]

Chapter 8

2 years later...

Jenna's POV

This is it.

I look in the mirror at my big white gown, my beautifully braided bun with my vail hanging from it. Kasey has convinced me to wear white high heels, since this is my special day. Don't get me wrong, I've been looking forwards to my wedding since I was a teenager, but at only age twenty? It just doesn't feel right.

Kasey helped me pick out the dress I'm currently wearing. In fact, she helped me plan my entire wedding, from the way the invitations were designed to where the after party would take place. She made me promise her not to wear any clothing underneath my dress as because it wouldn't give this day the special effect. Unfortunately, I broke that promise and wore jean shorts and a black crop top underneath, plus I brought my converse with me just in case. Hey, when I get married, I'm not having my whole after party with my high heels on.

I adjust the top of my dress, doing my best to make sure my shirt underneath isn't visible. Now thinking back, maybe black wasn't the best choice. Oh well. Kasey then taps my shoulder and smiles at me.

"Let's walk down this aisle," she says, linking her arm with mine. I weakly smile back at her and the doors open. I look at the crowd of people sitting in on the benches and they all rise when I come into the room. Since nobody wanted to take on the task of walking with me down the aisle, my best friend stepped in and held my hand the entire time. Everyone has been so supportive, including my fiancé, but I don't know if I can dedicate myself to him yet.

Kasey pats my arm and whispers good luck to me before standing with the few other bridesmaids. I stand in front of the priest and beside my soon to be husband. It just doesn't seem right to be marrying Carson Lueders. But it's happening, and I can't stop it.

The priest starts to speak to everyone in the room, but I can't listen. I'm thinking about how I can't do this. I can't marry a man that I don't love enough to picture a future with. I can't devote myself to him enough.

"Do you, Carson Lueders, take Jenna Dimmer to be your wife, to live together after God's ordinance in the holy estate of Matrimony? Stay with her to comfort her, love her, honour her, and keep her in sickness and in health?"

"I do," he says with a smile.

"And do you Jenna Dimmer, take Carson Lueders to be your husband, to live together after God's ordinance in the holy estate of Matrimony? Stay with her to comfort him, love him, honour him, and keep him through sickness and health?"

"I..."

Everyone looks at me strangely as I stamper my words. I see people start to whisper to each other, and I try to force the words I do out, but I just can't. My mind and my mouth won't allow me to.

"I... I can't. I'm sorry," I say. Everyone gasps almost completely in unison and I look at Carson who is staring at me dumbfounded. Going as fast as I can in heels, I run out of the room and into the changing room in the building, taking off my dress as quickly as I can. I take out my veil and my heels and replace my shoes with my converse.

I go to the first place that I go to when I need to get things off my mind; the Reston Park. When I first moved here, I found myself sitting in this very location when I was sad or I just needed a quiet place. I sit there silently, letting my thoughts consume me until I hear footsteps behind me. I quickly look up and see a face that I wish I never had to see again.

"Jenna?" The person whispers.

Cliffhanger😈. I'll try and update tomorrow. Love you guys!