Trust Me

Chapter 9:

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I felt my stomach twist and my knees go shaky. It was a shame that every time id get nervous or anxious, or just have depression hit me in general, I'd feel as if I was going to fall over. Then again, they went weak when I was happy.




I quickly but quietly make my way down the hallway and down the stairs. I looked at the ground trying to avoid any questions and concerns that may come from Joan.




"I'm gonna go," my voice shook, "my mom wants me home. Maybe I'll help him next time."




"Oh, honey, are you okay?" She asked as she put her arm on my shoulders.




"Yeah, I'm fine. I just need to go home." I smiled.




A lump in my throat began developing. Whenever I'd cry, or before I'd cry, I'd feel a lump in my throat. Swallow it away, swallow it away.




"Oh," she nodded, "come back whenever, okay? Sympathy dripped in her voice.




"Yeah, of course." I lied as I unlocked the door and walked out.




Luckily I left my bags by the door and didn't let Tony bring them to his room.




I knocked on my front door,tapping my feet on the deck impatiently.




"Hi mom," I whispered as I pushed past her an rushed onto the stairs.




I quickly ran up to escape any further questioning. I needed to cry. Crying is okay. It's okay to cry. It's okay to be sad. It's okay.




I ran into my room, the hot tears trickling down my cheeks. I closed my door, sliding my back down against it. I covered my face with my hands,




"Honey, are you okay?" My mom asked as she knocked on the door.




"Yes. Just.. Stubbed my toe." I sniffled as I wiped my tears with my hands.




"I'm going out to WAlmart. Do you want to come?"




"No, I'm good. Buy me ice cream or something." I sniffled.




I could feel her standing on the other side of my door. I could see her shaking her head and sighing before walking away.




My phone began to vibrate, startling me. Tony's name flashed across the screen. Do I read it? It's not like I could. The tears in my eyes made everything blurry and harder to read.




Tony: my ma said you looked upset. You okay? I thought you were coming up?