Just What I Am.

I refuse to call it love.

Hannah's POV:

I'm terrified to tell Rakim. But I have no one else to vent to.

"Nicole is his new bitch." I said.

I cant stop myself from beginning sob. Just the sound of it coming out of my own mouth makes it more realistic.

"Shady.." He just shook his head. I know he's pissed off. His eyes became watery, and not because he's sad. He's about to get angry.

"Then we got in a fight. Long story short, Alex pulled his gun out on---" my voice shook. I can't finish the sentence.

Rakim looked up into my eyes again. Right now..... His stare burns right through me. If I would've never drove to Alex's house... This wouldn't have happened.

"He- almost shot me. I ---threw a knife at Nicole, thinking it was her. But it was-- him. My own bro---ther wants me dead. And instead of me fighting back, I ran. I broke my own rules." I paused, and he pursed his lips together. "I can't---- kill my own brother Rakim."

I couldn't stop myself from crawling out of the shower and into his lap. From then on, I balled my eyes out. Rakim isn't used to comforting people. It's not that hard to tell. He placed his arm around my back and motioned his thumbs in a circle.

"I'm sorry." His voice rumbled. It's even deeper than it usually is.

I can't really even answer right now, so I just shook my head and held him tighter. Making his shoulder wet from the puddles of my tears.

Rakim's POV:

It explains everything... I mean what kinda girl wouldn't tell me they love me? I'm the fucking king.

I had a feeling she wasn't going to stop crying, so I picked her up and brought her to bed. Shes so much easier to carry when she's not wasted. Damn, I love it when she's drunk.

I covered her up, and she was probably faking, but she fell asleep. Her silent and slow breaths put me to sleep too.

/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\

It's about 3. Hannah's up before me this morning. She's sitting in front of the mirror, spreading neon pink lipstick across her top lip.

"Mornin bae." I came up behind her, and grabbed onto her upper waist.

"Hey, wanna go down to the beach?"

"Nah imma head down to the city with the boys and get information on tonight."

"Ok well I'll see ya later." She got up and gave me wanna of those mesmerizing kisses on the center of my chest.

She was wearing a cover over her bathing suit. She got close to the door, before I pulled her back to me. She turned around and smiled.

"Whattt?"

"I love you."

Her face went blank quickly. She rolled her head back, and tried to pull away from me. But my grip is too strong.

Why won't she say it back?

"Whatever... Just be here by eleven." I said letting her go.

Her pull caused her to quickly fall back onto the floor. Her eyes shot up at my face in anger and embarrassment.

"Ughhhh I hate you!" She screamed up at me.

I bent down to try to help her up. She smacked my hand away.

"Excuse me bitch. Don't get disrespectful wid me!" I screamed as hard as I could at her.

Hannah's eyes began to water a little.