Daddy Ashton 2

CHAPTER 57:

Its hard to believe that after all these years my twin is here. Once you have watched someone you thought died you can never go back. That is what is happening with me. Tyler is supposed to be dead, how is it that for years he can go on lying about something like this? I mean didn't he think about me, or my mother? She was so devastated. Me and Luke could not get her to eat. At one point it came down to my brothers and me putting her in the hospital. She made herself sick, or was sick from a broken heart.

As I sit here i wonder what it would be like if my mother was here to know Tyler was alive this whole time. Would she be happy, or would she be mad about the fact he lied. This questions run through my mind. I wished everyday that Tyler could of been here to see me get married, even to watch my kids grow up. My twin never got to see me fall in love. He never was here to give me advice when my marriage almost fell apart. In this moment i do not feel happy that he is back. All i can feel is hatred, hatred because of the endless pain, and the sleepless nights where i lied awake because i had were nightmares of Tyler's dead body, or body now that i know he is not dead.

I feel someone touch my shoulder and i turn my head just enough to see Ashton, I watch as he sits down next to me. He sighs as he looks me in the eyes "how come you and Luke never mentioned him and how come you never told me you had a twin?" "i did not know how to tell you or even explain it. Besides its not something i like to talk about or even think about"i tell him, "it always hurt to much to even say his name so we all thought it would be best if we never talked about, like it never happened or that he even existed". I look ahead at the trees. "Ashton i cannot do this" i look at him with tears in my eyes. "then don't" he tells me as he pulls me close and i cry into his shoulder. i can't just let him in my life, not after all he has put me through.