Daddy Ashton 2

CHAPTER 27:

(Time jump a week)

Today is the day of the memorial/ funeral for our baby boy Dustin who's gone. Ryan and Jane flew in, all of the boys and their wives and kids are here. Mine and Ashton's families are here and even Blake showed up. We are just friends and surprisingly Ashton is ok with it.

I am supposed to speak but I don't know if I can, it's to hard so I just wrote it down in case I forget what I wanted to say which might happened. My mind is so jumbled that I'm literally pacing when I should be watching people arrive. As I'm pacing I feel a tug on my leg and I look down to see Sophia in here wheelchair.

I bend down so I'm face to face with her "mom why are you so sad and why are we here" she asks and I sniff wiping my face. I take a deep breath in an out "you know how I was pregnant and you were getting another brother" I say and she nods "well I lost the baby, he died". She tilts her head "how did he die" she asks "you remember me being gone those few days when that bad man took me" I asks and she nods again "well I got hurt and he was ok for awhile but he couldn't handle it anymore" I tell her and I watch as she hugs me. "It's ok now" she starts "he's in heaven with the angels" I nod and pull away and we make our way to the memorial.

Everyone has arrived so me and Ashton make our way to the front. He holds my hand and I lose it "Ashton I can't do I can't read this" I tell him and he grabs the paper from me "I will" he says and I nod. He unfolds it and begins to read:

Family, and friends through this hardship we could not thank you enough for the support and love that has been given to us. Me and Jessica lost a child, but our children Annabella, Dylan, Sophia and Ryan lost a sibling they never got to meet. I wish that I could of know Dustin, so that I could see if we raised him right. I wish that I could of watched him grow up and become a man that I wish he had gotten the chance to be. But mostly I wish that Jessica could of held him. I caught a glimpse of our dead son after he was pulled from her and he was beautiful I just wish I could of seen him alive. I watched as Jessica was in the hospital room hanging on for dear life as once again she was hanging by a tread. Jessica doesn't this they had to choose her or the baby and since there was no guarantee of his survival they chose her. He died saving his mother and I could never have been prouder. She always doesn't know that I had held his tiny, lifeless body in my hands as I cried in pain. Nothing hurts worse than see your child dead. Anyways to end this we are glad you have supported us through this and for that we love you, thank you.

He steps back from the mic and I just stare at him "how come you never told me" I ask him "because it hurt to much" he says pulling me into a hug as he kisses me. I never loved this man as much as I do now.