Daddy Ashton 2

CHAPTER 58:

  Walking back inside I spot Tyler. I decided that maybe I could have back in my life but i just time, time to adjust to the fact that the twin brother I once thought was dead is now here. I mean what if someone you seen died randomly show up again years later? 

How do you handle that? Or even deal with it? I mean what if the one person you grew up with that was the person who knew you better than anyone just died then all of a sudden years later shows up like nothing happened? I mean my twin was gone and i had accepted it but now to find out everything was a lie is killing me. My poor mother had just lost my dad before Tyler was gone and was destroyed. How do you look at someone the same knowing they are the reason?

I would love nothing more to be happy but I can't. I have missed so much time and he never got to see me fall in love with Ashton plus he never was there to see my children born or see me raise Ryan into the man he is today.

I look back up at Ashton, "this is killing me Ash" i start with tears in my eyes " how could he do this to me, my mum or even to Ben and Jack?  I watched him die and now after all these he is here, alive and well? seriously" i finish sobbing as he hold me and i wipe at me.

"Look at me Jessica" Ashton says as he lifts my face to look at him "You are strong Jess you can overcome this pain you are feeling. It will pass and you will finally have the relationship with your twin that you two were born to have. I know you Jessica Irwin and i know that your first instinct is to push him away but don't" he looks at me in the eyes and i instantly now that he is right. I sigh "ok i am ready lets go talk to him" i say standing up extending a hand out to Ashton. He grabs it and we walk inside.

i walk in to see Tyler hitting it off with the kids. I watch as he holds Dustin in his arms. And in that moment i realize that it will not be so bad to have him in my life. I guess i can actually handle it and i also know this is what i want, no this is what i need to do.