Daddy Ashton 2

Chapter 59:

I DO NOT OWN THE SONG!!!

           

A few days later:

It has been a few days and yet it still seems unreal to me that Tyler is back. For years to me he has been dead to me. How does one pretend to have died? How has this happened to me twice? First with my ex Jason and now with my brother? I swear am a walking disaster, horrible things always seem to happen me. Why? Do i have a sign on my back saying to destroy my life? Make it hell?

Honestly if i did not have Ashton or my kids i could truthfully say my life would be empty, i would not have a purpose, no reason to live. With the way my depression and anxiety were growing up i am surprised i have lived to be in my thirties. Ashton saved me in more ways than he will know.

Anyways i am currently sitting in my music room trying to write a song. I recently got asked from the producers of the movie Fifty Shades Darker movie to write a song from the movie and being i love books of course i said yes. But I am stuck. i fiddle around the keys on the piano and all I can think about is Ashton. And instantly I find the words for the song. As I am writing I hear the door open. "How's the song going"? I hear Ashton ask me. "Great I think I finally have it but what i came up with fits more as a duet. So i have a question" i say looking into his eyes " please sing it with me its called I Don't Want To Live Forever. I know you hate singing solo but i can't sing this without you, i don't want to." He sighs " fine" he says and i hug him and hand him the sheets of music and he sits next to me at the piano. " You have to sing the first part" i say and he nods so i begin to play.

He begins to sing:

Been sitting eyes wide open behind these four walls, hoping you'd call
It's just a cruel existence like there's no point hoping at allBaby, baby, I feel crazy, up all night, all night and every day
Give me something, oh, but you say nothing
What is happening to me?I don't wanna live forever, 'cause I know I'll be living in vain
And I don't wanna fit wherever
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home

(He finishes his part so i look over at him and start singing my part)

I'm sitting eyes wide open and I got one thing stuck in my mind Wondering if I dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life, oh Baby, baby, I feel crazy Up all night, all night and every day I gave you something, but you gave me nothing What is happening to me?

(we both sing together looking at each other)

I don't wanna live forever, 'cause I know I'll be living in vain

And I don't wanna fit (fit, babe) wherever (wherever)
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back homeI've been looking sad in all the nicest places

Baby, baby, I feel crazy

I see you around in all these empty faces
Up all night, all night and every day
I've been looking sad in all the nicest places
Give me something, oh, but you say nothing
Now I'm in a cab, I tell 'em where your place is
What is happening to me?I don't wanna live forever, 'cause I know I'll be living in vain
And I don't wanna fit wherever

I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home

I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back homeI just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
Until you come back home

Once we finish singing we just stare at each other. suddenly i feel his lips touch mine " Jessica that song is amazing i can't wait to record it with you" he tells me and i smile at him "thank you so much. i wrote that about us. i don't want to live if it means i don't have you. my life was dull and empty, barely felt like i had a purpose to live and go on. you saved me more than i can ever explain to you". i start crying so i wipe my face and begin to speak again as i see tears begin to build in his eyes. "For years I felt like i wasn't worth having someone love me but then i met you you and everything changed. Things began to make more sense. I knew the first time i looked into your beautiful greens eyes i knew you were mine." i sigh and catch my breath as tears fall from both of our eyes and i begin once again. "i remember you finding the scars on my wrist and you never once looked at me differently. You have been there for me even when we split for a few months. Ashton i owe you my life. You saved me and i could never thank you enough."

He grabs my face an wipes my tears and looks me in the eyes. " Jessica you saved me. I never felt good enough even in the band i always felt the other guys were better than me, but you always made me feel like i was good enough. you have me through everything. you gave me the most beautiful family and i am forever grateful." he finishes and we kiss and instantly feel like i am worth it.