Losing Your Memory

5 - Kiss

Clarke's POV:

I examine the scar which now spreads accross my stomach and it hurts like hell.

Bellamy...did he stitch this up? It is a slightly sloppy job and part of me wants to undo them but i'm not that dumb and it is quite impressive for his first time. I need to thank him...

My thoughts are interrupted as the curtain to the drop ship pulls open and in steps a guy with long dark hair.

I was about to stand up, ready to explain i couldnt remember who he was, as due to the intense look he was giving me, he wanted to talk.

But before i could get a word out he was in front of me and pressing his lips onto mine.

For a moment i was stunned and stayed frozen, half sat, half stood in this strangers hands.

Finally i got my senses back and shoved him away gently.

"I..i..."

I couldnt say anymore. Tears were welling up in my eyes as i looked up at the boy...was he my boyfriend? I cant even remember his name. Oh god i feel like im going to be sick.

For all this time i sat there, staring up at him, my eyes filling with tears he simply stood over me, watching and i felt unsteady.

"Clarke...I love you" he says eventually, his breath catching in his throat as if he is terrified. I feel a surge of guilt, as if this is my fault.

"I..im sorry but i dont remember you" i cry, standing up and pushing my way past him, tears now beginning to fall slowly down my cheeks.

It is dark out and there arent many people around. I can make out a few figures by the fire, all blurred by my tears.

I stumble down the ramp, heaving, my mind spinning as i clutch my stomach which is burning with my sudden movements. I know i shouldnt be up but the dropship had become suffocating.

As i half step, half fall onto the uneven ground, pain shoots through my stomach and i cry out. I stumble. I stumble into someones arms.

They catch me and hold up my face, i let them, going weak in their strong hold.

"Clarke, are you crying? What happened?" It is Bellamy, i think. Oh god i can hardly recognise his voice, what if we had become really close since being on the ground and now i cant even recognise his damn voice. Another surge of tears spills from my eyes as i grab his shirt in my trembling hands.

"Hey, shh its alright" he says soothingly, his voice slightly unsteady as he wraps his arms around my back.

He starts dragging me slightly and i walk with him until we reach a small rising slope at the edge of camp, he sits me down against the wall and places himself beside me.

I close my eyes to stop the tears and open them again quickly after, to wipe my vision clear with my hands. Feeling suddenly embarrassed.

I turn to look at him, it is Bellamy...at least i got something right. His dark eyes are wide and full of concern.

"What happened? What did he do to you?" He asks forcefully, he sounds angry...but not with me.

"Nothing..." i choke, trying to clear my throat. "Well not nothing...i mean he kissed me."

I pause for Bellamy's reaction out of interest and i hear him say something under his breath that sounds a lot like "bastard" and i think i can see his hand clench into a fist...i might be wrong i cant really see in the dark.

"But i dont remember him..." i admit, feeling that surge of guilt again.

"Hey, Clarke it's okay, you could get your memories back any time soon...it will be fine" he says, though there is something doubtful in his tone...or is it dissapointment?

I shiver again, only dressed in a vest, still clutching my stomach i gaze over camp, there arent many people still out.

"You alright?" Bellamy asks, nodding at my stomach.

"Oh...um yeah im fine." I say, trying to ignore the pain. Then Bellamy shakes his head, i turn to look at him, raising an eyebrow to see he is smiling, his dark eyes shining. "What?"

"Nothing...its just you litterally fell down a cliff a few hours ago and now you're sat there telling me you're fine" he explains with a slight laugh and i find myself smiling.

I turn away from him, still smiling to myself and feeling much calmer than before. "Thank you..." i find myself saying out of the blue. Bellamy's eyes are still fixed on me but i dont turn to meet his gaze. "For saving my life...that was you wasnt it?"

I see him nod in the corner of my eye then he coughs awkwardly.

"I just wish i knew who everyone was..." i say thinking back to the boy in the dropship, i gaze over at it "who was he?"

Bellamy shuffles in his seat as though uncomfortable before saying "oh that was Finn. If you need filling in on the past 10 days i mean...i could help" he says slowly.

"Really?" I perk up, turning so quickly and gripping his arm in excitement. I quickly let go feeling my cheeks flush but Bellamy just laughs.

"Sure, you should go to sleep, I'll show you to your tent" he announces, getting to his feet and he holds out his hand. I take it with a smile of thanks.

He helps me to a tent accross camp. "Thanks...again" i say sheepishly.

"Goodnight...I'll see you tomorrow"

"Yeah..." i stare up at him slightly dazed for a moment "lets see if we can get my memories back..."

AN: God damit Bellamy, will he tell her what Finn did? What's stopping him, keep reading to find out :) and sorry for the late update xx
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