Losing Your Memory

18. Only If

Bellamy's POV:

My heart it pounding being so close to her but she doesnt seem to want to let go and this fills me with a new sense of confidence so i find myself leaning in...

I move so close to her that our lips almost touch, but i stop. I dont want to make her uncomfortable or ruin the bond we have built...

I can feel Clarke's warm breath against my cheek, and we stay still until Clarke pushes foward, her lips pressing into mine with enough force to make me lean back, my hands on her back, pulling her with me so she is leaning over where i sit on the table.

Clarke moves her hands to my neck and i almost shiver at her touch, standing up so i am now bent over her. When our lips part i feel giddy and almost sit back down again but Clarke pushes me onto the table anyway.

"You umm need to rest" she says breathlessly, and i almost feel regrettful but i can see her trying to force down a smile, she almost looks confused. I nod and let her walk away, i can imagine she is probably quite overwhelmed...as am i.

Shit did i just kiss Clarke Griffin...did Clarke Griffin just kiss me?

I sit for a very long time, staring at my  bloodied shirt in front of me, now more out of breath than i was before.

But no collapsing lung can take my breath away, as much as Clarke can! Where is she?

I eventually push myself up and stagger outside, still shirtless, where i am approached by several friends asking if i am okay. Octavia runs at me and punches my shoulder (the uninjured one) before hugging me.

I smile at her and she gives me a querying look. I wink at her before stumbling to my tent where i shove on a T-shirt with a grunt of pain at moving my left arm.

Now what? Shit...now what? Where did Clarke go? What if she is already regretting what happened...oh but i cant stop thinking about her.

After a while of grumbling to myself i decide to go find her and i start with her tent. I am just approaching it and i notice she is stood to the side of it, talking to...Raven?

I duck out of sight as not to interrupt but i can hear their conversation.

I hear Raven speaking first in a desperate, stumbled manner "I just wanted to say how sorry i am Clarke...i never meant to hurt you but me and Finn go way back - and i didnt know thats how he got arrested i promise - and i wanted to tell you the truth about the accident but Finn told me not to and i felt so guilty that-"

"Raven its okay! Now i can remember everything and in light of what has happened because of my accident, i think you probably did me a favour!" I hear Clarke reply. This is followed by a silence where i assume Raven is stood in shock at Clarke's understanding.

After a few more apologies from Raven and some nasty comments about Finn from the both of them, Raven walks off and i sneak out into the open and approach Clarke, catching her almost off guard.

"Bellamy! Hi" she says cheerily, a pink blush rising in her cheeks. "Sorry about before for umm kissing you...and then urr walking off" she says quickly, laughing with slight unease. "Was that okay? Umm kissing you i mean, i havent totally freaked you out? I mean umm...yeah" Clarke mumbles, not meeting my eye the entire time she is speaking.

I barely register the fact she has asked me that question but after a moments silence i say "kissing me? You? Okay? Is it? You...kiss me...okay? Is it...okay umm what?" i mumble, tottaly baffled then Clarke finally meets my eye and i am glad to see a gentle look on her face, she almost looks amused and I am now the one blushing.

"Can i take that as a yes? That it was okay-"

"Yes! Definitely, absolutely. Yes it was very much okay" i blurt out, my voice not sounding my own as i stand their stuttering.

"Wow have i actually made Bellamy Blake, lost for words?" Clarke laughs, her confidence resurfacing as mine shrinks and flops to the pit of my stomach.

I smile, just enjoying her company despite the embarrassing fact that i am a blubbering mess.

"Well i wouldnt get your hopes up for it ever happening again!" I say with more stability, grinning automatically and Clarke blushes again.

Clarke's POV:

Damn him and his stupid sexy grin, and his stupid beautiful eyes. Bellamy Blake...who would have thought i could suddenly fall so hard for him without even knowing i could!

"So uh Finn has been taken from camp" i tell him, trying to stop my stomach fluttering by changing the topic of conversation.

"Oh! Good riddence, im just sorry i didnt get to see him out...god he really shot me didnt he!" Bellamy exclaimes, a look of slight shock on his face. He rolls his left shoulder, wincing as he does so.

"Bellamy you are the worst patient, keep that shoulder still!" I exclaim with forced annoyance, trying to stop the corners of my mouth twitching upward.

"Well do you kiss all your bad patients? If so, id like to keep up the reputation" he says cheekily, with a wink and i laugh despite myself.

"Oh shut up!" I giggle, feeling giddy again, my stomach making a lurch as i glance at his lips.

Bellamy screws up his face as if thinking over my request, umming and areing as he does so until he finally says "okay hmm i guess i can shut up but... only if you go out with me"

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