Losing Your Memory

13. Mis-communication

AN: this switches points of view quite bit sorry :) enjoy

Clarke's POV:

"He's a mad man!" Finn cries, leaning against me as i set him down onto the table/medical bed.

I look at his face, an examine his jaw. I then roll up the hem of his trouser leg to check his ankle.

"Well your jaw is fine, i mean it might bruise and there is no serious damage done to your ankle either, you might be a little achy for a bit but that's all" I say glumly...maybe Finn was right...Bellamy just showed his true colours, he cant even hold a civilised conversation.

I hardly know him anyway...so why do i feel so sad...like something has just been taken from me? I had wished so hard that Finn was wrong...

"Thanks Princess" Finn says.

I flinch at the nickname...remembering when Bellamy had said it. God damn him.

I leave Finn there and as soon as i step outside Bellamy comes up to me. "Clarke you have to listen to me-"

"No! No i dont! I know..." i say, lowering my voice, meeting Bellamy's dark brown eyes furiously.

"What?" He says, trembling.

"I know how i got hurt...and i cant believe you kept it from me! I dont even know who you are!" I cry, tears prickling my eyes and Bellamy looks crestfallen.

"Clarke i was going to tell you- i just couldnt face it" he says and i look away.

"I dont want to hear a half ass apology for what you did...i cant believe you. Stay away from me!" I almost scream! I cant look at him, so i run back to my tent and zip it up.

Why did he do it? Why didnt he tell me? Why has he been tricking me this whole time? Why him? Why, why, why do i wish he was here right now....

I cry for a long time and i yell at Finn when he tries to come in. I dont want to see him. Im angry with him as well as Bellamy.

I suddenly sit up, i am bombarded with thoughts and hints of memories like my emotional state is somehow triggering my mind to reopen.

But everythings slurred and i can remember snippets of conversations, faces almost blurred as i try to picture them.

My head starts to throb so i lie down and close my eyes in the hope that i can open my mind.

Bellamy's POV:

"Bellamy are you alright? What was all that with you, Finn and Clarke earlier?" It's Jasper, he looks concerned as i am slumped against the wall on guard duty, two hours after the incident with Finn and Clarke.

"She knows. She knows what happened the night of the accident" i say glumly, looking out through a hole in the wall out at the green mass of trees.

"Shit...i hope she's okay. I-wait who told her?" Jasper asks, sounding confused but im to miserable to care.

"Dont know, Finn i guess" i mumble without really paying attention to myself, i should have told her!

"Wait Bellamy are you listening to yourself right now? Why would she help Finn back to the dropship if she knew?" Jasper says loudly, hitting my shoulder.

I'm listening now, "well maybe he told her while they were in the dropship..." i say unconfidently.

"They werent in there long enough and she didnt look like someone who had just heard bad news a second ago when she left the dropship..." Jasper says.

"Then what the hell was she talking about when she said she 'knew'-" then suddenly it dawns on me "Finn! He must have told her something else..."

"You dont think he lied to her?" Jasper gasps, looking angry as we both let the idea sink in. "I'll talk to her! Finn has been out for blood ever since her accident, i wouldnt put it past him to put ideas in her head...and i doubt she will listen to you." Jasper says determinedly.

I just groan in response, this should raise my spirits but it still stands, i have been lying to her about the accident and at the moment she hates me because of some ideas Finn has planted in her mind.

"Bellamy...even if she doesnt believe me, she will remember eventually, Finn didnt think about that" Jasper says softly, looking at my expression.

"And what if she never remembers?"

"Then i will just have to show her Finn is wrong!" Jasper says finally, looking stern and i give him an appreciative look, still feeling hopeless as he walks away. I hope he knows what he's doing.

Clarke's POV:

My stomach rumbles furiously and i open my eyes for the first time in over two hours. It's probably time for lunch but i dont feel like getting out of bed.

I lie for a moment, staring around at my messy tent when i see the shadow of feet outside the door.

"Clarke? It's Jasper, can i come in?" Jasper says quietly and i sigh.

"Sure" i reply, pulling myself to a sitting position with a grunt. The tent unzips slowly and in comes Jasper. He smiles before zipping the tent up again and he sits down on the floor in front of me.

"How are you? I saw what happened earlier, you seemed pretty upset" he says softly.

"Yeah...Finn told me-"

"What exactly, did Finn tell you? I cant imagine him of all people to be the one who told you about your accident" Jasper says, a glassy look of anger crossing his eyes, that i have never seen on him before.

"Umm wait, what? What are you talking about! I know Bellamy pushed me! I don't know why but-"

"WHAT?" Jasper is on his feet now, looking ready for a fight and i jump, slightly startled and wait in anticipation for him to explain. "That little prick- he, god i'm gonna hit him where it hurts!" Jasper mumbles to himself.

"Jasper what are you talking about?" I cry, standing up now, excitement rising in my chest over the possibility that Bellamy is innocent.

"Bellamy didnt do that! Whatever Finn said is a lie because he...Clarke i feel like im not the right person to tell you..." Jasper says softly.

"So i wasnt pushed! But Bellamy said he was sorry he didnt tell me...so he is keeping something from me!" I exclaim, feeling dizzy.

"Clarke you need to see Bellamy, he will explain everything but Clarke i warn you that Finn is not to be trusted, i knew he wanted you back but to go that far...just go see Bellamy" Jasper says finally and i nod before rushing out of the tent.

I am merely out in daylight for all of 3 seconds when a set of hands grab me from behind, covering my mouth so i can't scream.

AN: Who grabbed her? Will she sort things out with Bellamy? Find out next chapter :)