The Middle Of No Where (Luke Wale Fanfic)

Chapter 21: Dresses, Suits and Stars

**Hazels P.O.V**
Prom shopping with my best friends really helped me feel better about everything. Me, Danny, Sabrina, Ava and Luna all went to the mall and also to the little shops on Main Street to search for the perfect dresses/suit, matching accessories that go with everything and cheap deals on getting makeup and hair done the day of prom. I still haven't made the decision but maybe a day with them would help. I also have a date this evening with Jeydon to talk about things. We are going to a fancy restaurant in the city. While everyone looks for a prom dress/suit I'll be looking for one for this evening. We all go in my car to the shops on Main Street first.
"Tony and I planned on getting really gay suits to wear to prom soo we must go to one now. Kay girls?"
"Lol you guys are too cute! I won't have a date for the prom:(. You all do. Sorry I don't mean to sulk." Ava says.
I grab her shoulders, "Ava, you will. There's still a few weeks away. There's no rush at all. You are a beautiful, strong, smart and very caring girl. I know there's one guy out there that sees you that way and more. Any guy would be so lucky to go with you. Don't worry you got us even if you don't have anyone. We'll all go together, that is if I plan to go but don't worry about that."
She smiles and I put my arm around her and go to one of the tuxedo places. I get a text from Jeydon.
It says: Hey Haz. I know we been not getting along all too well lately. Im sorry. I'm really happy to see you tonight after I'm home from my last show at the tour with my friends. I'll have to tell you all about it! It was wicked awesome:) I may have gotten you many gifts and all the fans got you a little something too hehe. I'll see you tonight xoxo. I love you so much.
I smile at the text he sent me and reply back. I know I forgot to mention but he went on a little tour with his friends on this YouTube channel he was featured on this past few months. I miss him so much. Anyways Danny gets his tux and we head to a boutique. Everyone tries on dresses, even me.
Luna shouts, "OMG Hazel that looks beautiful on you. Everything you've been trying on was like made for you but this one is spectacular!!"
Everyone nods in agreement and tell me how good it looks on me.
I shy away. "You know I can't. This dress cost, omg $2,000 dollars. That's insane. I have nothing to wear it to. If I buy it I can't return it they won't accept it. But thanks you guys. You guys are the best friends anyone can have. I really don't show it enough but you are like my second family. Each and everyone of you."
They all tear up sarcastically and form a group hug. We giggle and take a group picture together. We throw our other clothes back on and buy the dresses, except mine, then we all go for coffee and lunch.
After this moment with all them I decided what I need to do...
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I get ready for my date with Jeydon tonight. Since he hasn't seen me I wanted to look perfect. I wear the black lace short dress I bought today. It sticks to my body and everyone thought it was sexy. I'm super nervous to tell him my decision tonight. I never felt this sick to my stomach. I just got to hold it all in and together till I tell him.

He arrives at my house and I go to his car. He gets out and runs to me. I jump into his arms and kiss him hello. Its been a while since we've seen each other.  The ride in the car was busy because he was telling me about his trip and he gave me the gifts his fans got me. He holds my hand the whole time. When we got to the restaurant he opens my car door for me.

"How romantic!" I tell Jeydon.

He bats his eyes and I blush. When we get inside and sit at the table, awkward silence fills the air around us. I look around and grab on to the seats as my anxiety starts to kick in.

He grabs my other hand and looks at me. "Haz? Have you thought more of where you want to spend prom?"

"Umm.." I look at him and see his lower lip kind of sulk and frown. Jeydon's eyes are all red and it looks like he has been crying. I wonder what is wrong. Does he really want me that bad to spend prom with him? He was all just happy in the car and seemed fine. Maybe this all is actually handling not well with him. I look at him and take a deep breath. "First, can I ask. Are you okay? You look like you've been crying?"

He looks away from my gaze and stares at the glass of ice tea he had ordered. "Well it's fine I just have a lot on my mind. Lately, I guess I've been feeling kind of down I don't know."

He bites his lip to try and hold it together. In the restaurant we are in a private area and in a booth so no one can see us really besides the waiter. I go and sit on his side of the booth and wrap my arms around him. He starts to break down and I just hold him in my arms. I sit in silence while he cried and I rocked him back and forth. We never got to talk about the prom the rest of dinner.

**trigger warning if you had suffered from selfharm or depression in the past or currently are**

Later when we go to his place we sit in his bed and watch the suicide squad movie that is my favorite. He tells me all about how he was relapsing with his depression during the tour and by the end when it was all over he found out they were never going to tour again cause they were breaking up, the group. I see his wrist and see scars and I tear up inside but don't show it. I trace and kiss them. He changed the subject by asking me again if I had came up what to do for prom.

"Yes I have made my decision." I start to say but then I look at his face and study it before I say the rest. Don't hate me Jeydon please. "I have chosen to go to prom with my friends. I'm sorry I just don't want to miss the one chance I'll get to go to my prom. I'm really sorry Jey."

He shakes his head and tries to smile. "No no it's alright I completely understand. You should go with your friends and have a blast. Make sure you take pictures the whole time I wanna see how beautiful you'll be cause I know you'll be the most beautiful girl on the dance floor Hazel Grace."

We hold each other until the movies ends and until we fall asleep. Before I sleep I think for a while. I look over at Jeydon as he sleeps and smile at how cute he is but they I start to cry silently. I don't want him to be sad or feel hurt inside. It tears me apart. Knowing he had hurt himself and contemplated suicide makes me not be able to breathe. I never want to lose him or for him to lose himself. I'm glad he promised me he'll go see his therapist again. I try and relax and drift off to sleep as I cuddle closer to him.

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Hello again everyone! I've been major busy and been through a lot personally these last few months and I apologize so much for taking forever to write. I love you all and thank you for the support and I promise with everything in me I will finish this story sooon! Hope you like this and if you have any suggestions leave a comment to help:)