Just another love story [BeforeYou Exit Fan Fic]

Reasoning and Clarity

*Dani's POV*

What has gotten into me lately? Really. All these emotions all the time and over reacting and just all around confusion! I honestly didn't expect to fall for Riley and right now I really wish that I didn't. I'm so stupid! ugh.

My head is pounding from all this frustration and I'm just tired of it. Of everything. I just really want to go home...

I kept thinking of why I had started to fall for him to begin with... And the reason as to why I didn't say anything before any of this....? Because I knew that it was going to end up this way. That I was going to be the one to ruin everything. Of course I could tell that when we kissed, there was nothing there but I really wish there was. I just didn't say anything and played it off as if it was nothing.

My stomach had started to feel uneasy. It all hit me at once. The guy that I care about so much is leaving and I won't have him here to help me with anything, make me laugh, or just spend time with. Which really sucks. I just wish I hadn't screwed everything up.

Then my mind wandered off into deeper thought.

Maybe one of the reasons is that I forced myself to fall for him...

Think about it: the reason we became close to begin with is all because of what happened between Connor and I. I'm not saying I used Riley because I would never use someone as genuine and kind as he.

In all seriousness though... He really is something special, that boy. The way he carries himself with a sort of quirky finesse- if that makes any sense. He is so genuine when it comes to how he cares for people, especially when him and I are together. He listens to me when I'm speaking. He restrains himself of any and all judgement, no matter how ridiculous things may seem. Guys like him are hard to find these days. Really. I feel as if I just kinda fell for the way he cared about me. The attention.

I don't want to make it seem at all as if I used him because I didn't. What he really did was help me and he was there for me throughout so much. Within the past couple months I would agree that we have gotten really close, and I've never really had that with anyone other than Adri. It's good to have that really. I just kinda psyched myself out with everything. So maybe I do love Riley, still more than a best friend, but not to the point where he loves me back the same way. It is a bit confusing and disheartening, but it doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would or did... I feel like now I have come to terms about what has happened.

I think about how bad he must feel right now, I've just been walking aimlessly amongst the crowd, and he's been following behind me, making sure I'm doing alright. I turned around an smiles lightly at him, "I'm honestly really sorry if I made you uncomfortable Riley..." He gave me a sort of unsure look, he bit his lip and stopped about a foot in front of me. I closed the space between us and wrapped my arms around him. He hesitated and still seemed confused because I was just sobbing over him, but he soon enough held me tight. "I'm just really going to miss you... And I just blew things out of proportion..."

He stayed quiet for about a minute before saying anything.

"I'm gonna miss you too Dani... And no matter what happens I will still be here for you whenever you need me." He pulled away slightly and I looked up to his signature smile.

"Thank you Riley..." I smiled back. Then he said something he had mentioned before, but I just didn't think he'd bring it up again...

"Anytime... Now do me a favour and go talk to Connor before this day ends."