Note #33

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When did everything get so ugly? It was once beautiful and now everyday it's filled with ugliness.
 
I wrote that a few days ago but I didn't feel like the thought was finished so I left it, but it think I figured it out.

   Everything hasn't gotten so ugly, my mind has. I ignore the beauty and look at the ugly because instead of trying to be better I hide in the things that make me sad.

It's ugly because I've made it ugly..but I want it to be beautiful again. I'm going to make it beautiful again...I'm not sure how but I will and it's going to be great, I wish you could be there for it but it's okay. I can't have you to hold my hand through everything...I'll be fine.


         -missing you xx

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