Without You

Chapter Thirty Four

November 15th

“Babe?” I bit my lip nervously, thinking through how this conversation may go.

“Yeah?” Zayn’s golden eyes looked back at mine. We were sat on the tour bus, I was in his lap, I had no idea where everyone else was but I hoped they wouldn’t come here any time soon.

“Do you want children?” I broke of the eye contact, looking down at my lap. There was a moment of silence before he answered.

“Yeah, I wouldn’t say now’s the perfect time, but at some point yeah” he replied cautiously. Thank god he said yes.

"Would you ever want to get married?" I asked him, this second question may make him think I'm thinking about the future. I changed the subject so that he wouldn’t ask any questions, eventually Niall, Liam, Louis and Harry returned to the bus to get us for a final rehearsal.

When I performed that night I felt like I was on autopilot, I couldn’t clear my head, my thoughts were going at 100mph, luckily Frankie was joining us tomorrow for the rest of the tour. I needed to tell her, or at least someone, I couldn’t carry on hiding something as big as this.

“You alright Summer?” Liam asked when we got back to the tour bus, Niall, Zayn and Harry had gone to bed and Louis was texting someone.

“Yep, I’m fine, why?” I replied, frowning slightly.

“Just looking out for you that’s all Sum” he smiled.

“Thanks, sorry I’m just being paranoid.” I apologised, “I’m gonna’ call it a night, night Liam, night Lou” I smiled at Liam when he replied, Louis was still busy on his phone. I climbed up onto my bunk, closed my eyes and tried to ignore everything on my mind.

November 21st

“SUMMMMMMMMMMMER” A loud voice called, pulling me from my sleep. As soon as I recognised who it was I quickly climbed out my bunk and ran to the other end of the bus.

“FRANNNNNNNNNNNNNNK” I wrapped my arms around her, hugging her tightly.

“Cant breath can’t breath!” She giggled as I pulled away from her.

“I’ve missed you like mad” I beamed, hugging her again.

“I’ve missed you too!” She smiled.

“Can we go for a walk once I’m ready?” I whispered seriously. She looked confused at my sudden change of mood but agreed.

Once I’d thrown on some trackies, a top, slipped on some vans, scraped my hair back into a bun and grabbed my phone we got off the bus and walked around the parking lot.

“I need to tell you something serious, something really big” I told Frankie when we reached the far corner of the parking lot. We sat down against the wall of the building, she nodded for me to carry on. “Well, I told you about me and Zayn, everything’s been SO good, like amazing since our last incident”

“So what’s up?” Frankie asked, itching for me to get to the point but also showing that she was there for me.

“I’ve missed my period and I started getting sick since about 2 weeks ago , throwing up and stuff and I felt really down, I just thought it was nerves so I carried on rehearsals and everything but it didn’t get any better. I So last week I took some pregnancy tests” I paused, watching her expression change “They were all positive.” I finished.

“Shit Summer! You have to tell Zayn, if you leave it any longer it may cause something, and you shouldn’t be performing either!” She frowned, pushing my arm lightly. “Are you gonna’ keep it?”