Poems of Mine

I'm running low on ways to say I'm scared and anxious

I'M LEAVING

I'M LEAVING AND I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO

I'M TERRIBLE AT SAYING GOODBYE AND IF THIS IS THE LAST ONE I MIGHT JUST NOT SAY IT AT ALL

honestly i'm just scared

i know that's no excuse

pretending you don't exist is probably (definitely) worse for you

but it's easier for me

i'm still a child, i can push you out of my thoughts until you (almost) aren't real anymore and then i won't have to face the fact that you will always be real

just real without me

buT THERE ARE SO MANY GOODBYES

SO MANY AND DO THEY AFFECT ANYONE ELSE AS MUCH AS THEY AFFECT ME?

IF THEY DO I CAN'T SEE IT

I WISH THEY WOULDN'T BLIND ME FROM IT

IT WOULDN'T HURT SO MUCH THEN

(AND HONESTLY IT IS UNBEARABLE

THE PAIN IS PARADING AROUND MY HEART, WAVING ITS BANNERS IN MY FACE TO KEEP ME ALWAYS AWARE OF IT)

my time here is running short

and it is sprinting oh so quickly away from me

while i try to catch it and bring it back

i'm having such good luck with that

a/n~so yeah I'm not really sure what this is, all I know is I'm graduating from high school in 3 days and I'm trying to cope with the whole leaving everyone I've watched grow up thing. I know I haven't posted anything in awhile but my life is kinda hectic right now and I'm trying to sort that out haha thank you to everyone who continues to read my stuff and encourages me to continue and such, it means everything to me <3