The Way I look At you #Wattys2016

Chapter 8

I've felt her pain when she just blurted what she has been through. I have this urge to hug her and kiss her but I can't. I made her like that, a miserable woman.

I saw her looking at the panel intently. Tapos na siya sa trabaho nya and I'm impress kase ang ganda at ang ayos. I'm working on the screwing the last pair of the thick wire. It's kinda hard to screw it, you really needing a full force. My sweat dripping I think in all parts of my body. Damn, even if there's a fresh air touching me but mainit paren. Buti nlng I wear a loose plain dark blue t- shirt.

I'm done to my task and nakatulala paren si Mimi na pareng may iniisip.

"A-are you alright Mimi?" I asked. Nakita ko naman siyang nagulat.

"Ah..ehh.. O-oo. Ano tapos ka na dyan? Tara" she said.

Alam kong may iniisip siya, it is something about me. I checked my watch and it was already 12 o' clock. Kaya pala wala na gaanong tayo rito.

"Pre, tara kain ka muna" referring to cholo

"Sige sir, una na kayo, malapit na to isang pair nlng" he said.

Natawa naman ako. Gusto kong katrabaho ang mga kasamahan ko kase they really have his passion for work. May mga kasama naman iba pero nakaassign sa ibang spot. Kaya si Cholo lng ang available sa tulungan kame sa pag wire. May makakasama naman kase later, coming from the company of Mimi.

I fixed the tools and the used wire properly. I don't leave my station a mess. Somehow I'm a neat freak, nahawa ako kay Mama at kay Mimi.

Mimi headed her way first to her company. I watched her walking away from me. I've felt this familiar sting in my chest, ayokong ayoko na iniiwan ako, at tinatalikuran ako. Ayokong nakikita ko siyang lumayo sa akin.

Sinundan ko siya at nasa may likuran lng nya naman ako. Ok na tong ganitong distansya sa amin, ayoko lng na lalakad siya ng magkalayo kame. I'm about to talk to her nang lumiko siya na papuntang company nya. Napatigil ako at tinignan ko siya. I should give her space, bago pa makalayo siya ng lakad mula sa akin tumalikod na ako. Like what I've said, ayoko ng lumayo siya na may malayong distansya kaya iniba ko nlng ang tingin.

I walked straight ahead sa company ko. Naisip ko kung mali ba yung ginawa ko sa kanya kanina. But I can't feel any regrets from my actions. I'm just regretting that I hurt her. That's the biggest regrets I've done in my life.

Nakarating na ako sa office, at wala gaanong tao dun. I saw Damien sitting like a boss in her swivel chair. Nilapag ko ang mga gamit causing him to flinched.

"Damn it Dude, nakakagulat ka naman" He huffed.

I borely looked at him

"Para ka kaseng boss dyan. Tara na Kain na tayo" I said. Naghubad ako ng damit. Ok lng naman yun puro naman kame lalaki dito.

"Wow abs dude, you really working out huh?" he said with this familiar grinned in his face.

"Inggit ka naman sa katawan ko? " I said.

"Hell no! Mas maganda pa hulma ng Abs ko sayo noh" he exclaimed.

Natawa naman ako sa kanya. Naghilamos ako ng mukha at kumuha ng towellete para ipunas sa katawan ko. I felt sticky and I think I stink. I somehow an odor freak. I'll make sure na mabango ako at malinis bago lumabas.

"Gwapo na naten ah, mabango ka na dude, daming arte" he said.

"Well, ganun talaga pag gwapo, working not just only the body but also the hygiene." I said. I wear a grey plain shirt.

"Yeah, I already knew about that" he nonchalantly said.

"Come on, kain na tayo" I said.

We went to the mall. It's refreshing to go the mall when sun glaring to its highest peak.

"Ok bro magkwento ka naman anong nangyari kanina?" Damien said and he's into it. We're inside the chowking waiting for our orders to serve.

"Well, sinabi ko na i will pursue her" I said.

Nakita ko siyang napakunot ng noo.

"What?" I curiosly said.

"Yun lng?" he said like he's waiting for more.

"Well, cyempre nagalit siya alangan naman na yakapin nya ako. Pag ganun lng nangyari lilibre talaga kita" sabe ko.

"Nangarap ka pa dude. Kahit naman siguro sino magagalit lalo na't pag nakamove on na" he said.

I glared my eyes on him

"Don't say that, I can still feel that she loves me" I said. Fuck that word, ayoko siyang magmove on.

"Wow ah, lakas. How do you say so?" he said.

I shrugged.

"I can feel it" I proudly said.

"Ibang klase" he just said. Sakto nman dumating ang order naman.

Masama bang umasa sa instinct ko. Sometimes when instinct tell something or feel something it will happen.

I made sign of the cross before eating. Nagulat naman si Damien sa ginawa ko.

"Wow dude, I can't believe you're doing that" he said with his shocked look.

"Matagal ko na tong ginagawa noh, hindi mo lng nakikita" I said.

Mimi made me stay closer to God. She changed me for a better and I want to have her for the rest of my life. I chewed one piece of siomai and there's these events flashing in my mind.

It's me and her in the same establishment but not same branch. I remember she was joking about that siopao is made of cat's meat, and since that I don't want to eat siopao even if that's a joke.

"You're smiling like shit there bro" Damien interrupted in my day dreaming.

"Wala may naalala lng ako" I said. Pinagpatuloy ko na yung pagkain ko.

"I feel you bro, when Liza broke up with me I was a mess and all I can do was to think and reminisce those moments we had. But I never loose hope , hoping one day that she will come to me and it did" He said.

I looked at him and I could see his happiness in his eyes. He stares at me.

"Just believe what you believe in" He said.

I smiled at him. It's getting weird when he's talking something serious.

"Kumain ka nga lng dyan" I exclaimed and we both laughed about it.

Yeah, I will believe what I think will makes me happy. I'm just starting and there are still more days to come.