The Way I look At you #Wattys2016

Chapter 21

I leaned on my swivel chair iny my apartment because of the tiredness I'm feeling right now. I'm already done with the plan I'm working for almost three hours. I took a deep sighed. I looked at the clock and it was already 7:00 o clock in the evening.

Since today is Saturday, Usually I'm making the most of life staying in my apartment and procrastinate. The deadline of the project plan is near so I rushed it out.

I fixed all the stuffs I've used and clean the messed in my study table. I'd felt like I'm so drained. Maybe I should eat my early dinner.

I heard my phone beeps, I immeadiately grabbed it and it was from the advisory of my sim card. Damn it, I thought it was from Mimi. I've missed her already. It's like I don't see her for 5 years again.

I composed a message for her, maybe I should be the one doing the move.

'Hello Good evening. Are you busy? I've missed you already; wish that I can see you now'

My lips lifted a bit from what I'd composed. Kahit nacocornyhan ako sa sarili ko dahil sa ginawa ko, I'd felt like that it's worth it.

I went to the kitchen and re-heated the food I'd cooked earlier. I've played something to kill the dead air inside my apartment. It's killing me off. I choose the Marvel's Agent Carter Season 1 episode 7. I'm a huge fan of marvel and it's a good series.

The protagonist of the series which is Peggy Carter reminds me of myself because she's longing for the love of her love which is Steve Rogers.

Kumuha na ako ng ulam ko at nagtungo sa sala. I'm so addicted to series. It's my past time for about 5 years. Imbis na maglalabas ako or gumimik why not to watch something para magkaroon naman ako ng good and quality life, and hindi lng naman panunuod ng series ang ginagawa ko, Im also working out on my body and sometimes focusing on my work.

Mas masarap kumain sa sala kesa kumain sa may lamesa. Sounds like its non ethical thing but I'm like that. Eating while watching movies is beyond great, mabubusog ka pa, maeexcite ka sa pinapanuod mo.

I'm on the middle of watching Agent carter when my phone rings. I immediately grabbed it with plate in my left hand. Mimi's calling. Naexcite naman ako dun bigla.

"Hello" sabe ko na pinipiglang hindi magmukhang excited.

"Hello din! Kaw ah ang text mo" she said. Napangiti nlng ako.

"Anong text?" I innocently said. Narinig ko namang tumawa siya sa kabilang linya. It's music to my ears.

"Sus Deny pa to, Miss mo na ako eh" She pursued. Natawa nlng ako. I sat in the couch and I put down my plate in the side table.

"Ok ok! Guilty as charged. Hindi ka kase nag rereply sa tinetext ko eh" I huffed. I'm waiting for her reply pero wala kaya tinuloy ko nlng yung office works ko sa bahay.

"Oh, sorry about that. Masaya lng kase ako kase maayos na ang pamilya namen" she said. I can feel the excitement and the joy in her voice.

"Anong nangyari?" I asked. Ang alam ko lng na galit siya sa papa nya.

"We forgave dad for his mistakes and Masaya lng ako kase maayos na, there's no grudge between any of us." She said. Hindi ko naman maiwasang hindi matuwa. I'm happy for them, at least she's finally letting go of the things that bothers her.

"I'm so happy for your family" I said. At the same time, nainggit ako hindi dahil sa Masaya na ang pamilya nya. I wished that ganyan din kaayos ang pamilya ko. It's hard to be part on the broken family, you don't know what to do and what side you're in.

"Hey, natahimik ka ata? Naalala mo yung pamilya mo noh?" she asked. She knows about my life story especially my family. I heaved a sighed

"Yeah sort of, mahirap lng kase at the first place it will not gonna happened in my part" I said. Masaya na ang bawat side ng pamilya ako. I'm still stucked in between them. Nandun naman sila pero you know the feeling that it's not enough for me, there presence alone cannot withstand the missing part in me, I want there affection , the care of them full time just like the others.

"I'm sorry kung nabalita ko pa sayo yung about sa pamilya ko" She said. Bahagya naman akong naguilty dun. I'd tried to loosen her up

"Huy, hindi ano ka ba! I'm ok. Masaya ako para sayo, you should be happy, don't mind me" I said. I will create my family and I won't let that happen to my children what I've experienced.

"Change topic na nga tayo. Huwag kang malungkot sige ka papangit ka nyan" She said. Natawa naman ako sa sinabi nya.

"Oo na. Hey you know what I'm watching Agent Carter while eating and while talking to you hehe" I proudly said.

"Ay grabe, parang hindi naman kita naririnig na gumamit ng kutsara. It's not ethical you know" She said. Napangiti nlng ako

"Yeah I know, nakasanayan ko lng na ganito" I said. I grabbed the spoon and get some food.

"Ay for sure ang kalat ng sala mo. Ang kalat mo pa namang kumain, parang bata" she said. I can't surpressed my smile while chewing.

"Huy grabe ka naman, nag Upgrade naman ako noh" I said while I'm chewing. Parang tuloy akong ewan kung magsalita

"Don't talk when your mouth is full, nako ah! Sige na nga baba ko na to" she said.

"Huy wait lng sige na" I pleaded.

"Ay basta kumain ka muna dyan ok? Ang kulit mo paren. Mamaya nlng kung natripan kong tumawag sayo" she said. Natuwa naman ako sa sinabi nya.

"Talaga? Tatawag ka mamaya ah? " I huffed like a child

"Depende basta bahala na" she responded.

"Basta kukulitin kita pag hindi ka tumawag" I huffed again. I heard she laughed a bit.

"O sha sige na! Kumain ka na dyan" she said

"Ok bye bye, I love you!" I said. I waited for her answer, hindi naman ako nag eexpect na mag I love you siya, I want to said it all over again to her

"Ok" She said. Medyo nadisappoint naman ako dun pero malapit na. Nararamdaman ko kase eh.

Parang naging maayos ata ang mood ko ngayon compare kanina na parang lugmok sa trabaho. What have you done to me Mimi? Tinuloy ko na lng yung pagkain ko and I'm so happy while watching Agent Carter.

Mahal ko siya, there's no doubt about that.