Look into your eyes, I see that you loved me.
But I broke your heart and let you go
Regrets, frustrations filled me because I hurt someone like you.
Now you're here, my eyes sparks like diamond. The way I look at you never seems to change, never see...
It's been a week since Damien taking his leave of absent for his honeymoon. I wonder how his wife dealing with him. For sure Damien enjoying his honeymoon because his been celibated since Liza became his girlfriend.
Bakit ko ba iniisip yan? Maybe I'm also celibated but not my hand. Yeah, pag tinamaan lng naman ako ng libog dun ko lng ginagawa yun noh.
I suddenly missed Damien. Iba pala pag wala akong kausap dito. He's my best buddy kaya parang nakakapanibago na wala kong makausap about personal stuffs. It's been also a week since the last time I saw Mimi. Kakatapos lng kase nung ginagawa namen, we will check it on some other times. They test the panels for the compatibility and if there's no issue on it.
I'm here in the main office and I felt like I'm so tired. I've finished all my works and wala akong ginagawa ngayon. I'm lazily staring on my laptop checking on any updates on the project I'm assigned for. I'm also browsing the plan I've made if there's any correction needed to imply. Damn it I leaned on my hand that supporting my chin, I've been doing this para pampalipas ng oras.
Maybe I need to sleep. Tutunog naman ang laptop ko kung meron nang updates eh. Hindi naman ako tuluyang matutulog, I will just take a nap. Hindi ako sanay pag tumutungo pillowing your arms. Namamanhid kase yung braso ko. I comfortably leaned on my swivel chair resting my head on the soft cushion while my eyes closed.
There's a lot of events that flashing in my mind. I'm thinking also of my dreams that happens two days ago and it such a nightmare for me. It's about Mimi turned down on me. Mas masakit ay sumama siya sa lalaking hindi ko maaninag ang mukha. I won't let that happens. It's just a dream and it's not real. On the other hand I think of what if that is true? What I'm going to do? For sure I'm not going to be the same person anymore. I will regret those moments that I've wasted. For sure it will hunts me down all over again until I'm used to it. I felt there's this sudden waved of pain hit me. Thinking of that para akong pinapatay.
I've tried to loose all the scenarios coming in in my mind. I really want to nap without anything to think. I took a deep sighed to calm myself. I just think of happy Mimi, it also gives me peace everytime I think of her happy.
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'I don't even know myself at all I thought I would be happy, By now.
The more tried to push it our lives gonna let go of control.
Gonna let it happen, gonna let it happen!
Gonna let it happen, so let it happen!
It's just a spark, but it's enough to keep me go away
And when spark out no ones around it keeps going"
I woked up it my ringtone "Last Hope" by Paramore. This is my ringtone when every 1 o'clock in the afternoon. Shit! I totally fall asleep. One of my favourite song and it's totally gives me hope, the lyrics really fits for what I've been through.
