Through Your Eyes {On Hiatus!}

To Be Alone

Chapter: 19- To Be Alone

❤Sarah's POV❤

Running. At the moment that was all that I could manage to do, what was written on the note repeating itself again and again in my mind. It was antagonizing, the pain my mind was putting me through by repeating everything on the note to me over and over.  

You may think that you're happy now you cow, but just as a reminder-he was mine first, and he'll be mine when it's over between you two. Just think about it, every single thing you do together has already been done with me, and every time you kiss, hug, touch, remember he did it with me first. I always liked the thought of you being my sloppy seconds, I just thought that he could do better than this the second time around, too bad he ended up with a fat ugly cow like you to compare me to. He will be mine. PS: You should lose some weight before thinking you're all high and mighty around here, there's no way anyone is attracted to that it's actually quite the opposite, people can't bare to look at you. 

The note made me realize just how much I'd let James into my life. It made me realize just how important he'd become to me in the few weeks we'd started dating, and I'd come to the revelation that I liked him a lot more than I'd first anticipated. I liked him a hell of a lot more than I thought. As I ran down the school halls and out of the building I could only think of the note repeating itself again and again in my head. 

James. James and Brittany. James and fücking beauty queen Brittany Carol had been together, they'd been together and now she was rubbing it in my face. Telling me what a great relationship they'd had together, telling me that they'd kissed, touched and possibly even more. I'm just glad that, that was all she'd decided to write about. I don't know what I would've done if she'd went on to say that they had also done the...deed. I think I would've been crushed beyond repair.

I ran until I was out of the school, tired and breathing heavy by the time I made it out of the doors. I knew education was important and all, but with the recent turn of events I deemed myself reasonable enough in making the decision to skip. Wasn't like I was missing anything important anyway, I was doing just fine in my studies and missing one day wouldn't change that. Still I wasn't happy with why I was missing today at all.

I walked off school property, surprised there wasn't that much traffic out this morning while I made my way to the city park. Believe it or not, I was actually happy about that, that meant that there was less people to see me skipping school and judging me about it. When I arrived at the park I took a moment to take in the sight. Even though it was winter and the weather had stripped the many trees in the park of their leaves, it was still a beautiful sight.

It was a rather big park, with acres of land bought and it's sole purpose just to be used as a place the public could frolic and have fun at, it was good enough. The whole perimeter of the park was covered by trees, and if you looked close enough you could see the fence that outlined it too, just in case you didn't get it already. There were many walkways and small trails you could walk on and at some places you could see little playgrounds, workout areas, and picnic seating places. Every few feet there was a light pole in case you were here at night.

Amazingly enough there was also a small pond in the middle of the park and right across from it a small stream where a bridge was built across it. Since it was the winter many people didn't come there for fear of falling in the freezing water, but I quite enjoyed being near them. The beauty they provided had a way of calming me, and so when I was feeling down or needed to think I often came here. Walking across the small wooden bridge, I sighed as I leaned against the handrail sighing as I thought over my life.

Honestly I couldn't find it in me to be mad at James for being with Brittany. Obviously he was with her before we'd even gotten together so I couldn't be angry at him for his past relationships, plus I'd seen how he acts around her, it was obvious he didn't like her at all anymore. But I could and did have a reason to be mad at Brittany. Who the hell brings up their previous relationships with another girls boyfriend? I'll give you a hint, someone like Brittany who wanted to be a relationship wrecker. Sighing as I ran my hands through my hair I looked out at the pond, smiling as I saw some geese swimming on the water.