Tapunan Ng Feelings

Song

A/N: Fiction, imagination, kathang-isip, gawa gawa lang. Pasensya na din, napahaba. Kase naman, feelings.

Oh and kung di mo pa nababasa the previous chapter- Lyrics, I suggest read that muna. Thank you!😙

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Imagine You and Me
Lyrics by Nicomaine Dei Mendoza

I first saw the poem Maine wrote a few days after we announced that we were going to make a movie, during our 9th monthsary celebration in Eat Bulaga. We were hanging out at her condo when she abruptly untangled from my embrace to grab her notebook and started writing. I watched her write every line, like she was writing from memory. A few minutes later and I was reading the whole thing. It took all my strength to control my emotions to keep myself from bawling right there and then, because I was not going to put myself in the line of Meng's bullying fire. I will never regret sending word to our director and producers about her awe-inspiring talent in writing. If there's one thing I can do to prove how much I love her, it's to show the universe how proud I am of her and what she can accomplish. If I had her talent in writing, this is exactly how I would write all my feelings for her and our journey to the love we have now.

All my life I was dreaming
All my life I was searching
All my life I was seeking for someone
I can truly call my own

I cannot begin to tell you how frustrating it was to be rejected over and over again, that every time an opportunity presented itself to me, I gladly grabbed it with two hands. Rejections became my best friend because it encouraged me and gave me strength to pray more and strive for more to reach my dreams. With every step in my journey was a silent prayer and wish for something and someone that will solidify my existence. When someone came and I got burned, I told myself that I will never let love get in the way of my career again. That was the point when all I thought about was how I could improve myself to further my career. Yang love? Abala lang yan sa trabaho.

It was only early last year when I started wishing for "someone" again. I was contented with my career. I had award winning/nominated movies, an album, and shows under my name. But I realized that with everything that I had, it still felt incomplete if I didn't have someone in my heart to share it with.

Then you arrived all of a sudden
Without a warning, it was you that I saw
Without a warning, it was you who came
You came right when I didn't know what to say

My contract with Eat Bulaga was almost up, when Maine started her job with the Barangay crew. I already knew of her and have seen her dubsmashes. But the thing about Eat Bulaga is that even the hosts get surprised about the segments, because most of the spiels get written on the spot. The Barangay crew had their own segment and the panel were already used to just winging everything. Adlibs and on the spot banters have always worked.

On July 4th, nobody knew about the new characters coming in, except the writers and directors of the show. That's why my surprise to see her there stunned me to the point that I spilled sinigang on my shirt. To say na natulala ako would be an understatement. I'm pretty sure I blurted something like "sya yung magandang nagdadubsmash ng Kris Aquino." I watched her segment everyday since.

Then July 16 came. I was so nervous when they made me sit on the stage to watch her segment from there. I had no idea that that was the day my life would truly change. There's really no other way to describe how I felt that day kung hindi "tinamaan ako." It was an overwhelming feeling, something I never felt before. It literally hit me straight to my chest and I didn't stand a chance. I realized later on that maybe I was already in love then. Kalyeserye was born and those afternoons became the best part of my days.