She's The Famous Nerd

FAMOUS NERD 80

I don't know what to do. I'm so afraid. If I give her a chance...will she hurt me again?

What am I doing here anyway? Sitting at Cyanna Hotel's sofa and looking at a particular painting? Tsk.

Napailing na lang ako at tumayo para lumabas. Damn. What am I going to do?

Should I ask some questions to her? Should I ask her why she left me? Should I ask her why she didn't come back?

"Dude."

Napahalukipkip ako. Tsk.

"What?" bored kong sabi sakanya pero nakangiti pa rin siya.

"Why are you here? Coleen's at home."

I didn't mind him and I was about to go out when he grab my arm.

"Damn! Are you gay?"

Tinulak ko siya palayo saaakin pero nakangisi pa rin siya saakin. Tsk.

"What happened between you and her?"

"Why do you care?" he irritate the shit of me. I'm pissed with his effin' presence.

"I'm just asking."

He put his hands up in the air while laughing. I fucking hate his guts.

"Mind your own business!"

I'm about to leave but he pulled me.

"Damn!"

I also hit his face, hard.

"You shit! You made her cry!"

We're glaring at each other. I don't care about the people around us.

"You hurt her! You made her feel that you don't care about her anymore! You made her feel the worst!"

I don't know what to say.

"Come with me, jerk."

I don't know why but I followed him inside his office.

"Have a sit."

We're facing each other, I'm staring at him blankly. Damn.

"Listen to this idiot."

"He don't love me...anymore. Ang sakit, sobrang sakit... May nahanap na ba siyang iba?...... Bakit bigla na lang siyang tumakbo nung sinabi kong gusto ko ulit subukan namin? Ganun niya na ba kaayaw sakin? Bakit....Bakit pa siya nagpakita kung ayaw niya na sakin? Ito ba yung ganti niya sakin? Kung ito nga....sobrang sakit."

"Coleen...I can't understand what your saying...please stop crying."

"Mahal na mahal ko si Stanley. Kahit kelan hindi siya nawala sa puso ko kaya nung nakita ko ulit siya...hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Akala ko galit siya saakin kaya nagulat ako nung ganun pa rin siya.... Sobrang natakot ako kasi akala ko wala na kong epekto sakanya... Akala ko pwede na ulit kami... Akala ko makakapagsimula ulit kami pero... ayaw niya saakin... Hindi...Hindi niya...na ko...mahal."

I froze as I heard her sobs. Damn. Nasasaktan ako sa mga hikbi niya. Ang sama-sama ko. Ayokong umiiyak siya. Ayokong nakikita miski naririnig ang mga hikbi niya.

"Happy now dude? Even though I can't understand what she's saying...I can feel her sadness. Are you done? If you don't love her anymore, just leave and don't ever show your face again."

I stared at Jonas. What am I supposed to do? Should I leave?

Without any word I left. Damn.

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