Born In Hell

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I know you're wondering where I went but I can't tell you that. It's a secret. A secret so well kept I don't know it. Seriously I don't know the name of this place and I avoid it at all costs. As soon as I know other people will know. And no heaven and hell doesn't know exactly where I went even though they know where I go.

This place, I'm not sure what goes on here. Some rules don't apply. It's not earth but it's not heaven or hell. It kind of reminds me of where my family stays, but also not. I'm not sure and I don't care. All I know is that no one I know is here.

"Belle?"

Okay one person I know is here and I didn't want to see that person now.

Shit. Shit shit shit. I just wanted to go unnoticed. And I don't have time to deal with her. I started walking away but she appeared in front of me and took me to what I'm guessing is now her house.

"What the heck, Belle?"

I huffed and stared at her. This is why I didn't want to deal with her. I just don't have time and I don't want to think about Raelyn or even see her. I didn't really leave on the best terms. She didn't really do anything it was just time for me to go. And something else, but we're not talking about that right now. Anywho she left this place and went to Sheila's and that was the last I've heard of her.

"One minute you were here and then," she made a little poof gesture.

Still I didn't say anything, because I'm still pissed about everything else and what comes out of my mouth next won't be kind. And yet she still pushed on.

"Why did you do that? That wasn't okay. You wouldn't like it if I had done that to you or even plotted against you."

"What do you want me to do," I yelled throwing my hands up. "It happened, get on with you life. You're making it seem worse than what it was."

I'll just explain now so I can save the hassle. Raelyn is my ex. What had had happened was I really liked her, but I didn't know what to do about that. The night before I left she told me she loved me. I didn't want her to because it wasn't going to work. It could have, but she didn't seem like the one. So I left and went home and stayed there until recently. Of course nobody knows about her and I though.

But man does seeing her make me feel like shit. She's still beautiful as ever. She wasn't the small fragile girl who looks like puberty only hit her in the face like in magazines and runway models. She was curvy with a nice hourglass figure. It wasn't too much but wasn't too little, it was just right. Raelyn had the blood red hair that came naturally and vibrant and crystal blue eyes like frozen ice.

I always liked how her skin would seem like honey and soft as silk. I liked how her style seemed like a earth goddess.

She took a deep breath, staring at the ceiling. "I didn't bring you here to fight... And I did get on with my life, I see you have too. How is that working for you?"

"So that's what you wanted to do? To rub in my face all the shit that has happened as if I don't already have it covered?"

She shook her head. "No I just... You left me. You just up and left and didn't leave a note or anything. I had thought something had happened to you. I thought there was something..."

Why is everyone trying to make me feel bad? I don't mean to do certain things, they just happen.

"There was. It just wasn't ours to hold onto."

She sat on the couch and I joined her. We sat there in silence and I kept replaying everything. Everything has been on a constant replay since I came from limbo. I should've seen it coming. Last time I was in limbo I didn't sleep for a long time.