Everything was on set.
Machines activated. Computers encoded. Lasers controlled. Procedures completed. Designs already installed. And subject was long detected.
Everything was doing great, but not me.
I was ruined.
I was a complete mess inside a mad man's body.
As I stared at her russet brown eyes sparkling with love and understanding, I could no longer feel alive. I was dead with a heart beating rapidly inside my chest. Without this neat lab gown covering my pale complexion, I would probably have been titled as the worst human male living on this world of advance technology.
"Hon, I am ready," she softly whispered as she caressed my cheeks with her soft palm.
Her warm touch on me was intoxicating. It was making my skin burn in affection and lust for a thing I've longed to happen. It was the sudden heat that I felt on every finger of her. Yet, as every second passed by, I could already sense her palms turning a bit cold and shaking. The static voltage of nervousness covering her being was electrifying my body.
Then, I came to realize that this time would be her first and her last, too. My heart seemed to clench in pain as I wondered for one thing that was never certain.
Could I ever have someone to hold me like this again?
"Are you sure you are ready? You know we can still stop this." I tried to give a hint of worry in my own voice, yet, it just came out like nothing. It sounded too low for a feeling to bloom.
My hands laid on her perfectly-curved waist as I held her closer to me. Our bodies was locked in an intimate way. A small equation of moral sense touched my heart when I saw how sincere her smile was. And her eyes, it was twinkling in bliss. I knew she has accepted my long-term proposal now. And that made me realize that...
Everything was doing great, but not me.
I was ruined.
I was a complete mess inside a mad man's body.
I breathed in deep and asked, "can I kiss you?"
As my hand crawled up to her long fingers, she just let out a light chuckle and moved her lips open to say, "No need to ask, hon. I am all yours." Her voice held mixed courage and surrender on its depth.
It was her sweet utterance that made my wild heart go even wilder. Excitement and great want was already running through my veins. It was soothing the system of my body, making me stay away from inner worry and anxiety.
My arms escorted her back to lay on the cold, metallic table. "I love you so much," I whispered those words with complete sincerity.
"I love you too, Hon." Her eyes seemed to glisten with doubt as she spoke, "I always will."
My jaw automatically tightened when I heard those lines. Did she really love me? No. She was corrupting our relationship with another guy. Should I believe her words? No. I would be a fool if I'd accept her lies.
Her warm breath brushing against my skin was sending hot chills down my spine. Desires were rising up to create fires of love. It was heating up the atmosphere above. And right there where affection rules, I dipped my face into hers and captured her soft lips into a deep, burning kiss again.
Seconds passed and our lips were already jailed into a torrid kiss. Our tongues were dancing on a rythm only us could know. Soft moans and gasps would escape our mouths because of the sexual tension rising between us.
Our breaths were getting heavier every second and I realized I needed to break the kiss. And so I did. The two of us were panting, hardly gasping for air as our lips separated.
The passionate kiss has ended, but it wasn't the end of everything. My hands went out of control as it roamed around every part of my woman's bodyㅡfrom her rounded butt and her cute twin mounds which was still covered with silk wears. My forehead crumpled as I stared at the clothes hugging her body. It was a disturbance so I decided to rip it off, leaving her fully naked beneath me. And a blush suddenly appeared on her face.
"Beautiful," I uttered in silent worship as my gaze raked from her crimson red cheeks to her bare feminity. "...and heartbreaking."
Could I ever see this enchanting view again?
The answer would rely on the next procedure I was about to doㅡthe laser process.
With only few moves, I managed to position her to the blue dots lighting above the cold metallic table. She was too transparent I could already see the mixture of worry and courage painted in her eyes. Her chest was pumping up and down. I could feel her nervousness, but that didn't stop me from proceeding. I doubt conscience would knock on my senses. I badly wanted this. And I would never back out just so I could escape from guilt.
I pulled one injection out of the lab gown's pocket and brushed her hair off her neck. "Hon, I promise, you wouldn't feel anything," I whispered before burying the long pin of injection in her skin.
A soft whimper escaped out of her mouth as the fluid inside the tube traveled through her veins. It was anesthesia. I wanted her to feel numb as we go on the process. As much as I desired for this, I didn't want to hurt her. Not physically.
While I stood inches away from the table, waiting for the blue dots to finally detect her, I silently uttered, "Thank you, Hon."
There was no response from her, but a single tear ran down her cheeks as the blue dots stretched out to connect with each other. I knew that tear was a symbol of her fear. I knew she was scared being subjected to this. I could feel the nervous vibe, but she managed to conceal it. She was always good at that, though. Concealing. Fooling me in such a good way.
And soon, bloody red lines of lasers were starting to rush down as it traced the edges of her body, slowly erasing her flesh. She wasn't screaming with the contact. It burned and holed her, but she was just there, unmoving, staring blankly as the bright light above her head made her face look like cold ice freezing.
She was in detriment. Yet, seeing her in a state like that did not bother me at all. Conscience could not affect me now that I was already halfway with my goals. I loved her, but I could not risk my heart's content. My woman has been loving another man and I could not tolerate that. I wanted her all by myself, and that's what I'm about to do.
Minutes passed and the lasers gone. The only thing left above the table was her still red heart dripping wet with thick blood. The second procedure was a successㅡto keep her loving heart, but not her unfaithful body.
With a victorious smile on my lips, I walked towards the holographic computer on the side and softly touched the PROCEED button. I could already hear my own head screaming in great delight as I heard the thunderous sound of a certain machine vibrating.
It was adding heat to my innermost desire. It was filling my heart with excitement. Soon, I knew, everything would turn out the way I wanted it to beㅡher heart being locked to me.
I turned back towards the table to see how the micro-architectural machine slowly moved down towards the table, continuously spitting out robotic microbits of steel. Sparks of blue light were meeting my gaze but it didn't hinder me from witnessing how the moving bits of steel crept up and coated her heart from inch to inch.
It was success, but still...
I was ruined.
I was a complete mess inside a mad man's body.
I was too obsessed with the concept of forever.
It caused me to turn my woman's muscled heart into a hard steel just so I could keep her loveㅡwithout betraying meㅡ'til the last breath of my being.
